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Life's ambivalence

2009-03-27T11:02:00.004+08:00

Life's ambivalence
when friends surpasses family, ya know there's nothing else to lose

it's a torture.
I have the capability to turn into a somewhat conniving, scheming, nifty guy that holds your life in his hands. But the cost? My soul.

That's a question when the devil gets the better of you. Then again, when i get to hell & when you alleviate to heaven i am punished for doing something i know is wrong whilst you are enlightened cause you were NOT enlightened before.

That is a paradox of nature many has yet to fathom. Religion is one thing, understanding how it works is another. That's a deeper spiritual study/understanding.

I use to think that if i were to prove my worth in society, your eyes can finally be peeled. When i slap you with my first million, you could shut it up & start realising your own mistakes.
But no, today karma showed me that i cannot take this nonsensical altercation anymore.

I would grow by myself, as per normal - just now without being your financial liability. & without each other acknowledging each presence in future. Our paths shall not cross & should never.
I have passed that stage. I feel really taxed & as my dreams wane everyday i breathe, i don't see an alternative..

Some are born with families honing the power of love every now & then.
Others are born the same way. Just that the power of love ebbs away as materialism eats into their heart.

It takes courage not to lose myself..
Is believing in you all the time a sign of weakness?
Can i seek comfort from the beautiful smile that hides the pain?

Sweet Sundays

2009-03-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

Sweet Sundays
mind off others

Sundays are what I have been waiting for.
When the day comes, I get ready for the night.
Having fun, dancing & owning the dancefloor..

But. What's really happening in my life?
Well, it's so complicated I do not know where to start.. School's over. So is my allowance & every other notion that comes with it.

I feel that I have so much inside of me that I have been bottling up recently. & despite everyone saying how harmful it is, I know it is necessary to do so.
Soon, I would know that I have to stop moving so quickly & halt to take a deep breath.
Halt to uncap all these troubles & share it with my friends...
But now, let me savour every fun moment life can muster for me.

Very soon, I would need someone to talk about recent altercations & worries.

very soon.

Breeze through

2009-01-26T21:50:00.002+08:00

Breeze through
emptiness..

emptiness eats you from the inside.

sometimes, you feel so alone even when it's so crowded.
you would suddenly feel that you need someone there with you, at that moment..
it feels like forever, sitting there and feeling so alone.

if you pretend it's all okay, it would hurt.
if you walk away, it would hurt too.

what's your decision?

i choose to do something about it..

but... but what if..?
what if what you do is no remedy for your pain?
a futile struggle.
a long road back to emptiness?

maybe. perhaps not, too.

saving all

2009-01-16T00:55:00.002+08:00

saving all
2007, 2008, 2009...

i am glad. i am not alone.
=]

i don't want to have nobody to turn to when i lose track of time at 4 in the morning.

will it

2009-01-10T15:35:00.003+08:00

will it.
take.you,anywhere?

if there's a will, there's a way.

I just read a few blog posts from my friends (well, cause projects and journal submissions back on campus have been giving me the headaches), and one post particularly interest me to comment.

I commented:
hahas. another one bites the dust! seems like reality hits you every birthday huh! HAHAS. life's always unfair & personally, i got over that fact-of-life during my younger days...
if there's a will, there's a way. changes are fundamental to catapult oneself forward in life. there's nothing oneself can't accomplish. your greatest barrier is yourself. you write your own life story.
there's nothing much friends can do, unless oneself does something. (maybe, your) wanting it is not strong enough.
HAHAS. sorry, can't keep my opinions to myself when it's all about you. =]

I really hope she understands. =]

Throughout my life, many situations started out on the wrong foot and a lot of complications arose from there.
Having the will to do something about it, really really makes a difference.

I must say though, that actually many of the people whom i know, would SAY that they have the will to do so. But i don't see action. & giving up on themselves is usually their ending point.

It actually puzzles me.

Are you guys just saying it to comfort yourself? Or to create an alternate fantasy so you feel that you have done something in your life when nothing actually changed?
When i was younger, i love fantasies too. But now, you should have the maturity to discern what's for laughs and what's real. Real time waits for no man.

Why procrastinate when you know more of it would result in the detriment of your own?

Planning is not good enough. It never was and never will be. Going on with the plans and executing them with your objectives in mind are what is important.
If you haven't even plan, yes, i am trying to say this: make good use of this opportunity to! Stop wasting precious time that you know you would regret in future!!

As D, and as your true friend,, i am not just someone that would say, "ok. it's up2u", unless you seriously pissed me off with your adamant wanting of all talk and no action.
Reading this, are you giving yourself excuses as to why you're not planning??
Be more receptive about all these comments about yourself. Fighting it does not mean you got over it. It just means you ran away from it and it would come back when the time is ripe. Try giving it a thought.
If you truly is close to me, i would want you to get this in your head!
Wake up call, baby!

Don't give yourself excuses - "i have no time, i am not good in this, i am not good in that,, i won't be able to do a good job".
You know what? Then, you won't!
That will be quite a laughing stock. I really hope for my friends to progress in life together with me. I am not a generous kind soul that would put a pause in my life and wait for you. Life's too short to wait for people - even if it meant friends. It's sadly vicious, but true.

Even if i want to wait for you, I can't.
Things we talk about, things we share, things we know of, would all be different.
It's like people from two separate planets and then,, poof!
Before you know it, we would have nothing in common and we are on different frequencies.
This is what scares me. It really does!
Doesn't this scare you?!

When one day, your life is reduced to a monotonous routine of rites & rituals,, where all the fun awe-aspiring excitement is buried in the ground, i won't be helping you dig them up. That's cause i would be in the jet plane, losing tears for you being unable to sit right next to me.

I am fast moving, yes, just like my mother or maybe,, faster.
I can't wait for you to catch up. It's just not me.
I can't change myself for you, but i would feel very sorry.

Time to unmask yourself, take off your pride and pull off your ego and take a good look at yourself.

(this post is directed at a person close to my heart,, but for the rest of my readers, i hope you get insights from my rhetoric as well)

Will it. (using your will to change your life)
Would you?
if not,, will 'it', take you anywhere?

As much as you think i am talking about you, criticizing, pushing and abusing you through words, actions & all...
It is very much deliberate.
I am talking about myself.

How i am afraid i would lose you,, a close friend to your own complacence.

New Year Countdown, 2009.

with Roy Seet. Tiffany & Auggs too!

more photos!

tres tres chic.

you write your own stories

2009 Resolutions

2009-01-01T00:00:00.002+08:00

2009 Resolutions
on being DtherLasse

On 2009, there will be a new addition to Lave Cradle, called petit LIVRE NOIR or "the little black book".

It's a offline diary where i will pen down thoughts & feelings that are very private and personal.
But the trick to this book is... That in every situation, i must come up with a strategy/a path that i must take. This path (like a solution the my own worries/problems), like an ultimatum would be made through considering factors such as my nature, personality, character traits, & even external factors.

In other words, this book is a way of life for myself. & of course, the objective is to understand how DtherLasse really works.

Other than blue-printing the steps of my mind & strategies inside my head, the book is also a place for discomfort. Dark secrets, painful memories are all unleashed upon the yellow pages of this book - covering all areas of my life.

For a peek into my Resolutions for 2009,
go here:
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Download my Resolutions 2009 simply by clicking the above.
Or...
http://uploading.com/files/PPL9FA0Y/2009 Resolutions.pdf.html
By going to this website shown above.

It's New Year's Eve, have you done yours yet?

I am not really a "making resolutions" kinda boy. I mean, c'mon! Look at what i've wrote!
They are all so strategic and not very operational & tactical. But, every step counts, doesn't it?

With the broad picture in mind, I would be likely to move along rather quickly in life.

My favourite part of the resolution is the part where i have to use words to describe myself as a human being. The part on "my lifestyle" and "my nature & how i'm nurtured".

In 2008, an epiphany bestowed me and made me realised that i'm NO PARTY ANIMAL.
Nope, i am not. Yes, i do attend parties, but being a party animal is not my cup of tea. It is fun to be prancing around in the limelight with everyone ogling at you, but hey. That's quite unlike of me huh! HEHES.

A bit bimbo-limbo.

My nature and nurtured is clearly dictated in the pdf, but i have to say - if a single soul can be described through by two lines of words, that is seemingly unrealistic and unnatural, right?
That two lines of words does not represent me, but merely explains how the major parts of me work.

Hmm. Let's go one by one down the resolutions.

Personal:
The way i've portrayed myself is so different to different groups of people. Well, of course, i let my guard down when i'm with people whom i trust. But people whom i trust are not necessarily the ones that understand me! Hahas!
It's like, one minute i am this and the next, i am that. So confusing.
I just hope in this new year, my closer friends can read me easily. That's what really bothers me.
For the rest of society, it is always safer with some masks on - & even so, the masks must be the ones that suit my face!
Knowledge and finances are going to be better managed - i just know it.

Relationships:
Yearps. The best part of life. People!
What more can i say? Let everyone live in bliss.
There are a few friends this year that are scrapped off the list of close friends, and for what, you may ask.
Well, time is ticking away every minute. & why would i want to spend it with someone that can't be true to him/herself? Go view my previous post "Retrospect 2008" a few weeks ago where i look back at the whole year of events with my friends.

Sartorial Style:
Fashion is now part of my life and expressing myself and creating an impression is pure fun!
My knowledge about fashion is still undeniably "not there yet". I mean... Let's talk about this when i can start quoting Oscar de la Renta's innovative designs vis ta vis master-of-structures Yohji Yamamoto's in year 2000 and how different their signature styles are compared to mistress-of-prints Diane von Furstenberg every season.
Fitness-wise... Err.. Did my Napfa Test yesterday,, got A for the easy one, B for the ok one, C for happy one and D for alright one... One E! - for freaking 3 pull-ups where i have to extend my freaking arms again and again - SIAO! & One FAIL! for our beloved 2.4km run! Look, i hit the gym one month ago, and i could only do it in 17 minutes. This time, i clocked 14mins. Great improvement huh! RIGHT RIGHT...

Society:
Career... Hmmm. Since i'm a non-contrarian, it is kinda obvious i'd be sef-employed. Even if i am not, i would be still calling the shots. I know my breed in the workplace - the all-adored and very coerced Anna Wintour kind. Maybe i got it from my mum, now, only smarter and niftier. HAHAS!
Social circles wise. Well, i did get a respond early 2008 from this someone BIG from a relatively FUN & INTERESTING social circle in Sin City. But after a while, he notices that lust doesn't really play a big part in my life and i might have sounded a tad too desperate in need for friendships where people truly understands you. So, yeah... Poof! He went. Right after a few calls and messages on how stupid he is to break up from a relationship i thought was cute.
But hey! They're back together again, these cute hobbits & i wish them all the best. =]
I shouldn't have been relying on him for any hope to get to know more people - like the hot M. Hmmm. reliance reliance...
Just do better being myself.

Hmm. me prefers "natural socialite that walk the aisle of luxe" now, with more focus on myself than themselves.
So much sounding than "the wannabe-self-made-socialite that paves the aisle of luxe he walks". Why why.. He who paves his aisle does not really do it himself anyway. Pulling strings and paying a sum of money. Hmmm. These i can do without.
>.<

D at the Christus Dominus Choir @ OLPS.

Have a blessed New Year, and may 2009 bring bliss in all your lives.
remember to wield your life with perceptibility. Always validate feelings of others, cause that's how humane humans are supposed to be.

pity

2008-12-26T21:01:00.000+08:00

pity
too late

Pity everything's too late.
My body has a natural repulsion against you..

I don't like it either.

Deal with it like how i deal with mine.

It's a torment.

I hate it when i feel weak.

I love you. But i hate you too.

Blessed Christmas

2008-12-24T14:29:00.002+08:00

Blessed Christmas
the boy you've never met attending carols & mistletoes.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
=]

A beavy-squiry Christmas holiday.

Christmas 2008.

Retrospect 2008

2008-12-22T16:22:00.000+08:00

Retrospect 2008
listen to my stories & more

Colours of 2008

December's coming to an end.

2008 passed by real fast.
It seems like yesterday was 29 December 2007 when i watched IAMLEGEND via video streaming online whilst i completed my IJ for CRM & Internet Marketing.

The start of 2008 was the climax of feeling infatuation at a very deep level, the management of my life myopically, the nights in my sleep feeling even more hopeful for the arrival of a new day,
the smoke & mirrors environment.

TOO MUCH on YOU, on WHO'S WHO, & on da 'LET'S LOOK & SEE' attitude.

like how Christmas 2007 is, year 2008 was a whimsical one.
I was in fantasyland half the time i'm alive.

I learnt alot this year when i'm in observation & fantasy mode.
One very important lesson is...
that.you.can't.choose.family.but.you.can.choose.your.friends.
&.it's.all.about.what.you.want.to.do.with.the.life.you.are.bestowed.with.
It's not being selfish or anything, but why would i want to be with someone i don't like to be with, whom i feel uncomfortable with, or with someone that don't think/feel at a similar level?
Someone who don't care much about you, or your feelings & thoughts. Someone who cares too much on cultivating his ego?

I want to be surrounded by beautiful people & beautiful things. Just like everyone else!

Not with someone that wants to be king, but don't have the self-confidence & what it takes to step onto the pedestal.
I rather serve a king than let a miser that feeds off his ego.

If you're baseborn, born in lowly status or is prejudiced/discriminated in society cause of your nature, the more you should have pride & not let others look down upon you. Have a backbone.
My sympathy for you will turn into disgust overtime.
& this is the reason why a big group of these are scratched off my list this year.

Respect is formed for those that is able to turn the tables and fight the adversities.
Not on an ego-boosting, sympathy feeding animal.
There are always someone out there who faces adversities larger than yours and there are those who grew strong overtime.

You won't learn the art of manipulation by having a one-pronged paradigm all the time.

Be true to yourself.

2008 taught me to love who i am & who i'm being every single day of my life.
We should all learn to love that. Love yourself first, and the people around you will love the true you.

Even the most complicated of mankind will be understood.

Be thankful and pay gratitude to life.

glad to be all alone underneath the mistletoe.

hopelessly done

2008-12-04T00:10:00.000+08:00

hopelessly done
why?

why.

Chasing Pavements

2008-11-27T10:07:00.003+08:00

Chasing Pavements
should i give up..

I HATE WHAT YOU DO TO ME...

even if it leads nowhere?

Hop on NINETEEN

2008-11-22T10:07:00.001+08:00

Hop on NINETEEN
make me remember why

The Archangel, such a beautiful artwork, don't you think? Ripped it off the net.

Past midnight, whilst i receive messages flooding my inbox, i overheard a conversation my mum had with my brother...
Mum: "Oh, so you had to stay for lunch and dinner for his birthday..."
Brother: "ya la ya la..."
I was like, HUH?! They remembered? So cool.
In fact, they always remembered my birthday - after some time and after some obvious hinting...
This year might be different, they might have remembered mine!
But no.
They were talking about Aaron's friend's birthday party.
-.-
Nothing about me.

She only remembered a few minutes ago this morning, and she was like, "Dallas, is today your birthday?"
My reply? - "No, it's not."
She walked to the kitchen & look at the calender... Then went off to do her chores. After a while, she questioned, "Isn't your birthday on the 22nd of November?"
I'm not replying...

Mum asked me a few weeks ago whether i wanted cake for my birthday in November. My reply was, obviously no. I mean, with her current financial standing, i don't want her to waste money for a cake for a family celebration.
I mean, what is there to celebrate?
Oh wow. Yes, ONE MORE YEAR WITH YOU DALLAS! & yes, mummy still don't know anything about you!
What i want in life, my favourite colours, my favourite food, my ideologies, my lifestyle, nothing.

Zilch.

Surely, NINETEEN is not gonna be a family bonding year.

What's in stored for me? Hmmm. I don't really know. But i guess i am ever-prepared to face any mountains in life, as usual.
Although i've outgrown lots of things, i feel that i want to relive them one by one with someone i love... But nahs. Nineteen is not a time to be thinking of "aww. sweet childhood...". Maybe repressing these memories are the reason why i am child-like by nature.

My blog is like a ranting ground. I tell myself, no D, don't rant & remorse.
Life's too short. But well, it's only human to do so, ain't it?
Hahas.
I mean, c'mon.
I doubt anyone understands much of my scribbles anyway.
It's just for me, myself and i.

My bolster. Yes. The bolster, some close friends know about.
Well, nevertheless, i am only human. I need a daily dose of TLC, concern and affection.
Where do i get this from? My bolster of course.
Soft, Sweet and Cuddly.
It's like a delusion or a trance i put myself through, to wake up a stronger person.

It's an efficacious vaccine i inject myself with everyday so my every-other-day is bright and sunny.
I mean, independence is so overused, it sounds almost barren when i describe how these nineteen years have gone by. You can never get strong 'enough'.

Even something small, like a bolster has its meaning in my life.
So, the next time you poke fun of it, think twice.
Without it, i won't be who i am now.

Yes, D is a complicated guy who's tired trying to be simple all the time.
Let me live my own life now.
If you don't get my life, i doubt even studying antropology would help better yourself.
I'm too tired to explain it anymore.
I have a handful of very close friends that do understand, and even if they don't, i'm sure they would do their best to. That. Is enough.

It'a a new year with my brave face on.

British India Nite

2008-11-16T21:09:00.003+08:00

British India Nite
Roy Seet's 19th Birthday Celebrations

Before every 31 August, Roy would be busy scouring the whole of Singapore with a dream and budget in mind to throw one of the most waited party in the year - his very own birthday bash!

I should be ashamed of myself blogging about this event that happened 2 - 3 months ago!

30 August 2008 - celebration at home with Uncle Winston, Aunt Annie, Samantha, Sher & Angel.
=]

making his wish!
hahas!
I wonder what his 19th birthday wish would be... hmm.
Had a wonderful meal whipped up by Roy, himself (which of course included some spicy food that Sher can't take)

all of them staring at Roy.
hahahahas!
Had a great night!

On his birthday itself - 31 August 2008, i joined him with his family for yet another dinner at a Chinese restaurant nearby.

Being unconventional, Roy invites all his close friends to gather round Tiffany's lovely abode one week after his actual birthday for a themed party - British India Nite.

Thus, the search for props, food and decorations begins!

The two psychopaths en route to Little India.

we decided, maybe we should play tourists for the day!

me; curiously lifting up beautifully strung garlands.

Roy wearing the garland and stupidly dirtying his white top.
the stains ranged from pink, purple to yellow and red!
-.-

Roy asked her to pose with us, so this indian lady gave him a look, did a quick pose & returned to her busy garland stringing.
-.-
scary.

Sri Mariamman Temple

Galore for Indian Decor!

sniffing mango leaves. hmmm. smells like... leaves!

mesmerised by gold & riches!! HAHAHAS.
Classic case.

After rounding up the area with the scorching sun overhead, we decided to go over to my place to meet Jeff up for Hanamco!
=D

loads of fun chit chatting, drinking hot & cold sakes, chilling & breaking bones.

went over to pick Sam upp and went over to somewhere round Rivervale to chill at their new park & amusement.
(the park near Roy's previous abode before he moved)

That's all for that night! Haas.
I feel so tired now & low in spirits.
=[

Continuing, the day had came - British India Nite.
In the morn, we went straight to Little India to get goodies & decors!

On the cab to Tiffany's.

getting ready for the night at Tiff's pink room!

Looking brilliant! As usual!

Ever beautiful aunt Gin! =]

SRS: Samantha.Roy.Sher.

always found this photo really interesting.. hmm. HAAS.

Beautiful aunt Terry.
hahahas! the scarf's making aunt Terry look so cute!!!!

the setting: where we feast & laughed the night away...

hand-painted by the birthday boy!

Which means... this is Auggy's seat!!!

all looking weird & hungry!

our array of food!
wahh. muacks to all.
delivered & catered by... Charlie's Corner & Hanamco.

Munch Munch Munch!!!

Fruits & more things to stuff our mouths with!

Trist happily watching his CARTOONS.

Mel Seet & Roy Seet. & no, they aren't related! Haas.

R wants to look like Godma Terry!!

what a coincidence huh Roy. Copying me only.... =P

Suddenly, a crazy guy appeared at the party!!

he made a hysterical, maniacal and shriling laughter that deafened most of us!!

"No! You can't destroy my beautiful party, party-crashing-monster!!!", Roy bellowed..
& thus, the monster left...

& the tradition begins!
Dalls & Samm kissing on Roy Seet's birthday!
MUACKS!

the game truly begins!
Roy, these are clues for more clues until you find your present!
=D

finding it on level 2, rampaging the working tables.

We gave 10 clues until...

the last clue led him to his birthday gifts!
Hidden in an antique box for more aesthetic appeal!

--- His presents won't be mentioned ---

emotion to portray: melancholy.

A portrait to end this post tonight!
Hehes.

Ok. i am feeling really really sleepy. Dozing off already...
More posts next time!

What a photo-intensive post...
Geez.

blessed 19th for you, Roy.
=]

Short Circuited @ War Memorial Park

2008-11-12T21:07:00.001+08:00

Short Circuited @ War Memorial Park
in films & photos

I attended Short Circuit: 3 with Auggy & Sam Lee (Nic was down with fever) last Saturday and i must say, Boo Junfeng is one hell of a prolific film maker.

Well, i finally said hi to E and totally put a stop to the "act-like-i-don't-know-you" game - weird weird weird... Turns out he's a livewire, a summer bunny. Oh, yes, i saw my hobbits too! (very bad D, to be giving names to people..)
W & E (not the same E) look so cute together, seeing them makes me go "aww". & i already know W dislikes me going gaga over their relationship. It's unnaturally weird. I should be beaming with envy or something! HAHAS!!

o.o

Back to the film festival,
when i first heard of the event, i thought the films wouldn't be "that" great (i mean, c'mon... Short films by queers for the queers...?) and would definitely mean capital constraints - loads of it!
With capital constraints, comes budget directions, budget actors, budget props, budget playwright, etc.

However, Boo did a brilliant job with his new film - Tanjong Rhu, the Casuarina Cove. & seeing his friendly, gentle and amicable personality, i just wanna give him a hugg!
=]
Brilliant work!
oh yea, he has suppa sexy voice too!!
Will do a post on him soon in December before Christmas!

The art scene in Singapore has so much more to offer!!
Which reminds me - Roy Zhang should really update his website.
-.-
Will try to hint him soon if i see him at Hanamco.

After SC:3, we went to meet Tiffy, Scott, Tamms & Roy to chill around the area and get some dinner to fill me up! We were all so hungry luhs - and i ordered salad. Yes, a very interesting choice when i could have eaten a cow.

this was shot at War Memorial Park after midnight.

i don't look tired at all. weird. Tamms, Scott & Auggs were already half-dead.

oooooooh. no idea why i was holding my own head. don't ask. tsk..

love the angle, thanks to Ms Tiffany Banks, photographer and legendary supper-model (pun intended)! 3 cheers to supper! Hurray Hurray Hurray!!!

i have no idea how the hell this photograph came about... 0.0
reminds me of Mckey in ANTM.

no, samantha. i can't fly as high as JL's girlfriend's friend. -.-

Profile! =D

Intense Synchronization!

best shot of the night? i mean Roy luhs. I am some background model for this editorial shoot.

last but not least, a parody/reenactment of ANTM.

we've reached a decision.
Roy has too little hair. Tiff has too much hair...
Both of you needs a bit of each other (isn't this Tyra's favourite line or what!).
& just because Roy looks like the hunchback of Notre Dame and Tiff looks a tad more normal, if not, drunk...

*flips photo*

Tiffany, you're still in the running to be ANTM.
Roy, having very little hair can hamper your modeling career. Go grow some and come back next season...
*hugs*

D's new obsession: Film maker Boo Junfeng! Rarr!
Well, c'mon. I may be able to help him manage his brand - Withering Travis.
Oops. Yes, i already know his company's name... & his youtube, facebook, friendster blog, etc.
I am officially his biggest fan! Well... Maybe not the biggest. But i've taken a liking in his films, though i only watched one and only previewed the rest!

What an artsy obsession for knowledge!!

my heart's in a headlock.

Reflections of a Skyline

2008-11-12T10:21:00.004+08:00

Reflections of a Skyline
adapted from Crave by Sarah Kane

adapted from "Crave" by Sarah Kane

i bet writers, playwrights and directors would know this notable figure!
cause i don't!
=x
Only name of a famous poet/dramatist i'd remember is T.S. Eliot & his beautifully written 4 Quartets.
Now i know Sarah Kane... A playwright.

She deals with themes like redemptive love, sexual desire, pain, torture and death.

Isn't it just awe-mazing?
Lyrical and poetic all at once.
I ripped this off Nat Ho's blog, if you're wondering how i came across this video.

& i think he typed this out as well:

"And I want to play hide and seek, give you my clothes, tell you I love your shoes, sit on the steps when you take a bath, and massage your neck. And kiss your face, hold your hand, and go for a walk. Not mind when you eat my food, and meet you at Rudy's and talk about the day. Talk about your day and laugh at your, your paranoia. I give you tapes you don't even listen to, watch great films, watch terrible films. And tell you about the TV-program I saw the night before, and not laugh at your jokes. I want you in the morning, but let you sleep in for a while. Tell you how much I love your eyes, your lips, your neck, your tits, your arse. Sit on the steps, thinking, 'till your neighbours come home. Sit on the steps thinking 'till you come home. And worry when you're late, and be amazed when you're early. I'd give you sunflowers and go to your party and dance. Be sorry when I'm wrong and happy when you forgive me. Look at your photos and wish I'd known you forever. Hearing your voice in my ear, feel your skin on my skin, and get scared when you're angry. I tell you you're gorgeous, and hug you when you're anxious, and hold you when you're hurt, want you when I smell you, offend you when I touch you and whimper when I'm next to you. Whimper when I'm not. Dribble on your breast. Smother you in the night and get cold when you take the blanket and hot when you don't. Melt when you smile, dissolve when you laugh. But not understand how you think I'm rejecting you when I'm not rejecting you, and wonder how you could ever think I'm rejecting you. And wonder who you are, but I accept you anyway. And tell you about the tree angel, the enchanted forest boy who flew across the whole ocean because he loved you. I'd buy you presents you don't want and take them away again. And ask you to marry me, and you say no again but I keep on asking because though you think I don't mean it but I always have from the first time I asked you. I wander the city thinking. It's empty without you but I want what you want and think. I'm losing myself. But... But. But. I'll tell you the worst of me and try to give you the best of me because you don't deserve any less. Answer your questions when I'd rather not, and tell you the truth when I really don't want to, and try to be honest because I know you prefer it. And think it's all over, but hang on for just ten more minutes before you throw me out of your life. Forget who I am and let me try and get closer to you. And somehow, somehow, somehow communicate some of the overwhelming, undying, overpowering, unconditional, all-encompassing, heart-enriching, mind-expanding, ongoing, never-ending love... I have for you."

Coco Rocha Making Love

2008-11-05T10:03:00.003+08:00

Coco Rocha Making Love
versatility; expressionist

Poetic Beauty

maybe 20% of why i love her so much.
=]

My favourite model on Number ONE.
yes, Jessica Stam has whooped down to number two for nearly 2 years now.

Go Coco! Want to know who are the other models that D cannot get his eyes off?
Stay tune!

Sasha Pivovarova, the Prade Girl that fell & now does Tiffany's & Zara's new face to show off her versatility.
Tanya D - the new Gemma & Sasha?
Jessica Stam, is she still druggy? But i do love her eyes.
Lily Donaldson, maybe Kate Moss with a new look...
Doutzen Kroes - the new VS model that might topp Rebecca Romjin's old days?
Bruna Tenorio, the just-perfect mix.
Raquel Zimmerman, oh.. Fendi's signature.
Carmen Kass - maybe time to get a timepiece?
Sheila Marquez - does anyone know who she is or do i love her look too much?
Mariacarla Boscono, how's Hermes' India Winter?

& many others that i don't feel like mentioning yet...
Ok. Maybe Natasha Poly, Hilary Rhoda & Lisa Cant?

words from an eighteen years old

2008-11-01T21:52:00.001+08:00

words from an eighteen years old
wanna be. happiness.

D. turning nineteen in 3 weeks' time.
=]

Well, i guess 18 has been an exciting, chaste, daring, adventurous, beautiful and memorable one for me.
Being a natural sucker for love, i made a few more buddies and yes, i do miss them when they are away!

I learnt so much...
19 sounds like a scary year - my last teen, huh.
In 3 weeks' time, i hope i can gather all of my gallant knights, beautiful princesses, fairy godmothers, long-time pals and fascinating beavers in my life for an unforgettable night out.

Hopping on to my last teen frightens me alot.

Having my mum, my brother, my grandparents, & some relatives in my life is a true blessing. My family is still here. Even though there are many rough patches, plenty of quibbles, inability to see eye-to-eye, and sometimes the urge to cut throats,, i love them as much as they love me. Well, maybe even loving more than what i always thought i'm capable of.
I learn and grow with them. I guess i know how to adapt and i know what my next step is regarding this 'family' aspect of life.

Leaving friendships as the last note to touch, how about finance? I guess i am biting off more than i can chew. Stressed. However, i know i can pull through and i would pull through eventually. =]
Not a hard course huh, monetarily speaking.
Career, work & studies? I am most proud to say - doing pretty darn well man! Haas.
Loving it and they are loving me too. SMU baby!
=D

I have a few career paths consistenting of being an Entrepreneur, and many other things. Any investors interested, you can always contact me & it'll be my pleasure to whet your appetite on any strategic business plans.

Love life? Relationships? Nahs. An empty vessel. I guess i'm waiting for someone to swoop into it with me. HAHAHAHAS. Someone did make a huge blow in my life. But i have gotten over it - and to my surprise, faster than i thought it would take!
But i can't say for certain i won't have sex with this person! - yes yes,, this is where my problem kicks in!!

This person did put me in a very huge dilemia in life - although it's not entirely this person's doing. I almost became mister-promiscuous! Hahahhaas.
Believe it or not - D, promiscuous and on the loose. The wild one out?
Hm, after careful consideration and persuasion from many - i decided promiscuity is not my cup of tea. (though i have to say getting me laid is possibly very easy at this period of time!)
Sex seems like just a pleasure-satisfying, libido-boosting happy pill.
A pill i would like to take soon - and i am so gonna lose my V before 20 hits me.
(realise that even though i might look a wee-bit androgynous, i am still a guy.)
=P

Friends, yes. My guard, my soul, my everything. A place for shelter and solace,, and a place to make the my world's most fantastic memories. Roy Seet. Such a prominent figure in my life. I can't live without you because you know me too well and too much! Haas.
The only person that has seen who i am naked deep inside and knows my every move in life.
Well, our relationship is built up through as much evil as it is good. A wage on a war and through the perspective of life and the world. Our vision of completeness in the universe is tighten till congruence. We cannot live without the other.
=]
(& yea, don't worry. If i get attached before you, i won't ditch you aside like Suriwon Tng! jokes! =p)

My definition of bestfriends, people whom i cherish, treasure and trust so much has evolved tremendously over the years... I am just gonna mention some names that made an impact in my life for my 18th year of life.

Samantha, my longtime buddy from secondary school that been through so much with me and helped me out with gaining self-perspective and self-confidence. An essential first-step to take for self-realization. Though sometimes will go missing for days (hehes), she stands by me no matter what happens and our devoted understanding from being through thick & thin together is undeniable. She knew how i started... A someone that started pushing me to be who i should be, who i wanna be & who i am. =]
(Start appearing!)

Tiffany - a pity i met her too late in my life. Our friendship blossomed like flaring fireworks the day the world of norm turned their backs on me. Being an obvious deviant and a natural contrarian, it is hard for people to see the diamond in this ore. However, Tiffany picked up this ore, dust it with her blood-stained fingers, ignored the spiteful remarks on how this princess should not lay her hand on an unrefined jewel and allowed me to shine for who i am. Having a deep connection and strong telepathy for us, is a bonus to pile on for a friendship that has seen both the worst and the brilliant years of adolscent (turning-adults). =]

Joyce. My fairy godmother sent from above. Someone that digs into my life as much as i understand the depths in hers. Being with her is like being with a second mother. Her nurturing ways and her sensitive approach in dealing with my dark emotional crisis, all adds up the satience & sapience for our relationship. Her ability to think for others more than she thinks for herself, her wanting to help you get through what you can't figure out alone. Her voice in my head filled with my own crying and angst. She was the one who provided guidance and showed me the path of leading a fulfilling life with strategies for war & battle all entwined around it for self protection. My god-sent hope in a dark dim-lited jungle.

Never would i wonder that i would be writing about him on my list of impactful friends in my 18th year of my life, huh? I told him before, you're just like my favourite time of a day (if i am forced to pick one) - the evening sun. A time for me to think back, relax, chill-out and recount what has happened. A time to be nostalgic. & seeing you appear in my life Jeff, makes me feel very comfortable. Well, maybe because i've known you when i was in primary school? Haas.
As scary as it might sound true, our friendship is made up of constant conflicts and tonnes of perspective of trying to understand one another. and with a special hint of a special kinda brotherly love we share!
The knowing of us being unable to get together as something more than friends is what make us even more inseparable.
;)

Other friends that i also cherish in my 18 years of living are: PB (Anna), R Teoh, Kate Yong, Sher, Erika & Roy Zhang, Tamms, Augg, Sixiu, Sharon, the Beavers, etc.
(too tired to name all)

Although my relationship with Anna is still kinda young, but we really try our best to relate to each other and we do share alot together! From fun-filled memories, to deep dark secrets and even crazy psychotic laughtry moments! But sometimes, i still do feel a certain wall between to two of us. Hopefully, as time passes by, we will get more comfy with each other and love sparks may fly! (Jokes. -.-) Truth is, i want a long-time loving & honest friendship. & "time" is a very important aspect factored into friendships. Anyways, she's already on my list of besties along with Jeff & da rest!
Just that i cant find a single photo of her....
Loves PB!
=D

R is busy with dance - that's all i know. It is kinda clearly stated on his blog to the rest of us how he priortise his friends - tpde & ambrosio comes first?! Hahas. I think we don't really care already... I have put in so much, it is time i rest.
Once he's less busy, i hope he remembers that we love him alot too. Sometimes, it scares us how much he actually loves us. But then again, i shouldn't place my trust/faith in the friendship by measuring how much he places in mine.
If he loves me, he will show me - like how he did before. =]
&... even if he doesn't... I guess i will just have to deal with it, then. I never liked superficial friendships to begin with and he acknowledges ours isn't one, hopefully.

However, these mere words can only describe my feelings i have for these people on a cheap scale of 'A-Z'. What i have with them is an unfathomable beauty itself and within itself. =]

They say, "words are cheap". Whoever said that must have known D's intention of giving it a worth of 26 letters.

i do miss the sunshines & you. =]

Holiday Clumps & Internship Lumps

2008-10-27T18:36:00.005+08:00

Holiday Clumps & Internship Lumps
what's up, what's in and what's with D!

Photo taken: 21 July 2008
(say: Woah...)
Have been very lazy uploading photos & organising my photo vault! Haas. But i guess i just did it!
Deepavali came at the right time, i guess.
Well, what's up with D?

Let's see. Last night was full of booze - Tabs & St. James.
Loads of dancing. St James was actually very crowded last night. Queue's a snake when it's only 10pm. SamLee, Auggs & Sher was with me, with two of Sam's friend - omg. I can't remember their names! Haas.
So, we decided to go for Tabs instead, dance floor was empty and so typically me, i was downing Augg's Ribena Vodka - or was it Coke Rum? - and pulling Sher for the dance floor! Owned the dance floor for about 2 hours and still, no one interesting was at Tabs!
Dancefloor was literally ours. No one else dancing until maybe 30 mins later. -.-
We decided, let's go back to St. James!!!
Finally met up with W - a friend of mine who's currently nicknamed mister-busy-bee due to his sudden disappearance in my life. & of course, E as well! They're like, my favourite couple!
=D

Spotted as well: Raihan, ED, DarylP, & Mantha's ex classmate.
Sad MC isn't there. Roars!

& yes, i changed my music on the blog again! It's Kylie Minogue's All I See.
why? cause dancefloor's mine!
=]

let's look at something more joyous:

This is cute Marian! We celebrated her birthday at the Cathay's Ben & Jerry's right after our dinner at Aston's!
=D

She's so adorable!

also spotted: MC & LV on a dinner date @ Aston's. =x

During the hols before internship kicks in,, we did a few exhilarating activities too!
There's cycling in ECP (with Tiffany & Tumms, also Rteoh & Jeff on a different occasion).

Roy Teoh doing a gorillax.

Hmmm, anybody excited to kick Jeff over the ledge?

Other than day cycles,, Tiffan & i had night cycles! We did it on a night i stayed over at her lovely abode. She learns quick & she's getting the grip of it! =]

& a whole lot of Hanamco & Charlie's Corner visits!

mainly cause Jeff's driving and Changi V seems so much more convenient.
i'm so excited for the Aroozoo outlet to open too. Hopefully, feels like home too - now that S.E.T. is fired. Haas.
XD

During the hols, we'd frequented Teoh Heng KTV, patroned Jumbo Seafood Restuarant, Sanur Indonesian Restuarant, Rice Table(Bali), and a memorable North Indian Restaurant @ Raffles City.
;)

This is Sanur. Sam & I.

Roy Seet & Tiffany.
Gosh i miss this bugger, Roy. =]

stupid bugger!
rarrr!

wah. something funny arh. must be roy's stupid jokes! >.<

she has bigg eyes. & she has no make up: the JC kinda girl. HAHAHAHS.

Sexy jawline huh somepeople~

Our nonsense. >.<

Went for steamboat at Tan Quee Lan & filled our body outta proportions! >.<
so much has changed at Esplanade. even some memories starts to fade off me. =]

Makes me wanna...

Do something to her.

Haven't you heard? Roy Seet's always prancing around doing makeovers for different peeps. =]
Mel Seet was once upon a time. This time, for his Fall/Winter signature look, the not-so-modellest-but-fun-and-sporty Catherine.
=]

side profile with hair half-way done.

loading up..

Sxiu's smile.

the happy stylists - Roy & Tiff.

hair done.

notice the hair being split towards two different directions?
this shot is the best i could find to describe her hair style.

Yang Sixiuness.

love the lips.

directions, directions! i'm not a superb photographer ok!

best shot of the day. hmmm. model needs more training uh! Haas.

the grand finale! ok. not that grand la huh.

END.

What's coming up for me..? Hmm.
Tumms already back in SG, will be meeting up with her & Tiff on Friday.
Roy Seet should be back on Wednesday...
Might be attending some Art Fest thingy since it's here... Hmmm. The Singapore Biennale, Short Circuit 3, someone's turning 19 this November, and err... My FTT.

Please let me get it over and done with! I have a bloody car at home unused and waiting!

next entry would be all about my bestfriends' birthdays & the my internship. =]
back to my Apple Strudel & music!

Mister Misunderstood

2008-10-20T22:07:00.001+08:00

Mister Misunderstood
it kinda hurts, those kinda words.

i'm more of a sentient than a sapient..
When was the last time you did some soul searching, or any form of meditation that includes self-realisation? Personally, i guess i do it once in a while to check on myself - which stage i'm at, where should i go from there, which points to turn at on the crossroads, etc.
All of us thinks of ourselves every once in a while and take checkpoints when we're on our journey towards our dreams. Some get lost, some realises they are chasing the wrong dreams and some - simply gives up.

Well, this morning, was chatting up this friend on facebook - let's call her P. P was telling me how she came out of her ivory tower due to the help by ladies working late hours (graveyard hours, she called it). I was curious.
Ivory tower?

One-dimensional & Elitist - her very own Ivory Tower.
She shared with me that the ladies brought out empathy from her. From her one-dimensional mindset,, from her elitism..
& gave her a breathe of fresh air.

What's she hitting at? Well, from my perspective, she's here to warn me from being an elitist - she believes i have the potential to be one.
Previously, J also warned me of it & i was a bit taken back. Why would she say something like that out of a sudden? I'm pretty sure now that a certain peculiar topic is revolving around my name.
Knowing that J & P both thinks of me in such a light is painful & it hurts. Was upset for a while during work & tears did start to well up. Hmmm. Maybe they were just worried.
Still, i feel so judged & misunderstood.

I thought to myself, do i qualify as an elitist? A real one - maybe not. Someone that can pass off with its tone? Definitely, D. you can.
For now, lay low, my boy.
I'm still an ignorant one, so many things that i don't know..
An elitist, no. An elite, yes, i apsire to be the best in my field.

It's not hard to be a snob, not if you know what you are doing and what you're doing it for.

I always feel that i'm underachieving. I'm brought up in an envioronment that i have to time and time again, prove myself. Reaching adulthood, you start realising you just need to prove to yourself. And of course, the people close to you. That's why maybe how J feels about me does have an impact on me.
It's her birthday today, too. What a coincidence!

it's really hard for find someone that already knows you & won't judge you for something you're not.
I guess that's my life journey to find someone there.

It has only just begun, P.
Look into the difference between sentience & sapience.

If there's anyone who understands self-concept better, that would be me.
Doubt anyone else that would has that level of standing, P.
Being elitist is simply too boringly easy for being DtherLasse to deal with.
;)

Time to DO NOT worry than merely say not worry.

Red Dino with White Fangs

2008-10-15T11:56:00.002+08:00

my red dino with white fangs
my virtual escapade

Everything is easier with you around.
you make it so much easier for me. It's comfortable, although sometimes awkward...
you make me less paranoid,
feel less hurt,
& most of all, you make me feel less needy when i'm such a needy person.
i miss you when you're gone - is weird. cause i don't really know alot about you.

you're here for me now.

The bottomline is, i'm using you.
& i'm sure i made it clear to you.

i feel loved when you're here.
i feel loved when you say those things to me..
but nothing is real.
i'm just using you.

since when i became like that?
i feel so tired already.
the best way to win over someone you like is when that person just fell out of love.
i think i just did.
the smittened by love effect worn off me.
Now, i just feel stupefied & like i wasted my life, again.
there's a strong urge to turn promiscuous.
but is that still me?

I hope my itunes would stop playing all these sentimental-emotional chinese songs.

for a while now, i'm cooped up at home.
on my bed, on my couch, anywhere i can just cuddle up into a ball & rest.
where i feel safe.
where i feel comforted.

watching drama, reality tv, anime & anything that comes my way.
when i don't think about it, i realised how much i just need someone physically there to whisper, 'i love you'.

i need your careless whispers
you're my happy pills, t.

Skin Deep?

2008-10-08T17:07:00.001+08:00

Skin Deep?
Check your friends!

Now
I'm all fueled up to ask you...
Which one of your friends actually go that extra mile huh?
Is there anyone in your life as concerned in your life than me?
I only know a handful of them and they are all my friends too!

Reality check - look around.
Are your friends just friends on the surface?
Superficial & don't share anything special with you?!
Maybe they are man - i'm so sorry.
Now, look at yourself!
Have you made that effort to go that extra mile?
Maybe not.
I had this conversation with you before while we had lunch.
Maybe you should re-think this yourself before questioning my intentions.

ARGH.
So irritating.
How much are friends worth to you?
Do you value them as much as they value you?

friendship is one beautiful thing you can't miss.

benefit of the doubt

2008-09-26T15:27:00.004+08:00

benefit of the doubt

can i just give that to you?
i want to trust you,, & i want to have faith in you.

you know that all i want is the truth.
please don't lie to me.

because, i love you.

la torture

2008-09-14T22:21:00.004+08:00

la torture
complementing completion.

My life haven't been a smooth one.
Many of my aspirations & progress has to remain on hiatus - just like my blog.
The reason why i am blogging now is maybe because i want to be heard?
Not like i have no friends or anything.
But just that i want to open it out on t-taLes, since it's a space for rants.

I am very happy i have beautiful friends that take the time to understand what a shell i am. Yes, i am a shell. My whole life is.

I am not complaining - this part of me is easy to understand.
I rant, but i don't remorse over it.

My friends, are one of the highly valuable assets i possess. Without ya guys, i would never have come this far and be who i am today. Although i might not be plentiful in terms of financial wealth, but i am proud to boast of my cognitive abilities.
I might not be a powerful scientist or a mathematics genius, but i sure spend alot of time thinking through and understanding the power & secret to life.

& this peculiar way of thoughts is what i always want to share with others. Sharing not only benefit the other parties, but it also benefit myself. I learn while i share.
& i believe that's a beautiful attribute to possess.

Listening to others & trying to understand is such a more time-consuming yet magnificent virtue then just projecting your own thoughts to others.

To my best friends, Roy, Joyce, Sam, Jeff, Tiff who spends SO MUCH TIME peeling my shell and seeing me naked beyond my own fiction and facades,, i want you all to know that i love you guys very much and i am very thankful for god's grace in the time we all spend together.
=)

When i think of each and every single of you, i remind myself to remain strong in my path to being DtherLasse. My path to becoming who i want to be.
You are vital in my life.
We've been through so much bright sunny happy times and even dark gloomy foreboding times.
In this time, where my life is still amidst the dark,
i think of you and it makes me not give up.

Every single one of you.

Promise me, you'd be here beside me for eternity.

Life now, is a still darkness.
Darker than ebony and burnt ash.

Living now seems a torture.

but this darkness,, is not powerful enough to break me down. i've been through worst. a few of you should know.

maybe there is, the only 5-lettered word that can break me down... but don't use this word on me.
not just yet!
i am surviving this and i'm putting on a smile on my face. everyday.

beloved friends, don't use that 5-lettered word on me just yet.

there's no rain that would never pass
there's no storm that would hide my rainbows
there's no thunder till i see my sun.

purely happy

2008-08-29T17:29:00.005+08:00

purely happy
thinkin' bout it.

you're a complicated person trying so hard to be simple.
yet, you can't handle complications & complications rule your life.
you don't understand who you are? maybe that's why.

i need a simple person that understands complications.
or someone that understands himself.
& you can't understand yourself.

maybe that's why i'm purely happy now.

calling alma mater

2008-08-22T23:58:00.001+08:00

calling alma mater
tina tan, tt.

this is a story of my mater & i.

On retrospect, so many changes - major & minor ones were hurdled through by us, together.
From birth, through happy times, sad times, lonely times, poor times, rich times, painful times and morbidly, suicidal times.

as the eldest of the family, when he's being a fucking bastard,, i was the only one who understands you, provide you with solace, was your glistering hope to life...

when i was young, when i din't even understand the significance of age & time,,
perhaps those days were my happiest, and where love in the family was wholesome and unified.
i always hope for such a day to comeback.
that's a naive thinking.
but i still hope for it.
just like that, i am, i guess?

for Love, i am willing to wait.
for Love, i am willing to make changes in my life.
for Love, i am willing to sacrifice what i already have.
for Love, i am willing to place faith in it & walk into a darkness of the foreboding unknown.

maybe, i'm not that hard to understand after all?
all i want is to live my life with love.

Mum, you piss me off alot.
& sometimes, you make me laugh alot, too.
currently, i feel pissed off with you.
very.

a few weeks back, you said (& i quote),
"being successful means having the ability of working under pressure and going through tremendous stress!"

i'm gonna say,
being successful in business terms, in my perspective,,
"Success is using effort in creating the the joy of the immense returns."

In life, it would be feeling happy and wholesome (throughout the different aspects - lovelife, family, friendship, self, monetary, career, memories, etc.) and completed in your one unique way of life.

I know that you're going through a tough period in life.
But being moody and irritating is just not how i would want my mother to be.

I come to terms of you being Tina Tan and being my mother.
I'm alright with you being ignorant to things in life, being very judgmental and being yourself..
But at the very least, please do be happy.
For yourself, and for me.

You have been mumbling about all men being bastards.
why can't you hope for the best?
why must such viper words be spilled through your life?
you made a mistake. that doesn't mean there's no one else who is able to help you through life..

You can't give up on Love.
I haven't.
If you get tired trying, don't stop believing.
Rest, then proceed on being happy with life.
Love will find its way to you.
=]

Still, i'm not gonna talk to you for a few more weeks.

Yesteryears, i always tried telling you how i feel straight to your face.
Because of Joyce who showed me another perspective in handling people, i learnt how to shun and walk out of your life.

Perhaps, that's how you would come to understand how sad you've been building your own life.

____________________________________________________________________

Don't say you understand me, cause you don't.
I am able to do and go through so much.
Maybe less, and maybe more than you.
But i know no matter what, i'm able to go through.
at least i still believe.

I placed faith in Love.
I will always believe.

Traveling through dark pits, falling and standing up again...
I'll make it through somehow.

How about now? You always complain about me now.

I do not understand your joy of demoralising and not having faith in me.
I do not understand why you always verbally abuse me like how that fucker used to do it.

But i'm here to tell you that i'm able to take it.
I don't have an idol that i pray to, a made-up prophecy of myself, religious chants and wishing stars to remind myself of how i can go through the trials of life.
All i need, is me believing in Love existing in the heart of all men.

With this alone, i'm stronger than most men.

I reassure you, with Love alone, there's so much i can do.
I would acquire happiness and joy in relationships with people around me. I would be successful in terms of making bank, i would be successful in understanding the secret to life, would lead a better life than what you're living in now.

You can too.
Just believe.

I am grateful, of course with all that you're giving me.
If only all the material that you give were filled with Love,,
that would be enough..

If success is the ability to go through stress, then fuck it.
You are capable, i know.
Go through this torment you're inviting.
& all negativity will end.

You either have to learn to love it, or walk away from it.
Choose.
Don't face this shit everyday and scream deep inside about it!

____________________________________________________________________

Sometimes, i wonder...
Why do i purposely not let friends understand how i feel?
Because maybe, i reached a stage where i never knew existed - a stage where no words can communicate my degree heartfelt emotions.

nothing can rationalise & nothing can make them realise why i am, what i am.

I mean, Royston Seet.
My soul mate, the one who understands why and what i am.
is unable to see my heart of things, sometimes.
i met him when i was secondary one and only grew closer near the end of secondary school.

time did us no justice.
if only he met me earlier in life, i would have a confidante in my darkest hours.

if even he, tries so hard all the time to grasp the core of who i am, i doubt friends whom i met later in my life would truly try and put in their effort to... although i really hope they can too.

at such an age - 18 - i'm not 19 yet, mind you!
all my peers and myself have reached a morph in mindset:
Instead of being more receptive to people & things around us, we become more projective.
Some able to make justifications of their own as they believe they attained nirvana, others suffer under their route to enlightenment.
I believe that as long as you believe that the way of life is pathed by no man other than yourself, that is sufficient.

They are less of a listener. Less of a man that understands.
More of themselves.
Things like ego, self-love, pride, disdain all comes into their life.

they place judgments on things & people alike.

maybe that's another reason why i don't like pouring my heart out.
it's a "so sorry, too bad" kinda situation.
i feel bad, i feel sorry. But i just know some of you will never be able to understand if you place ego above so many things else.

good intentions are not enough.

Maybe, this is the reason for the pain i feel.
The thought of people all around failing to understand the pain of others..
frightens me so much. i need someone, even more.

____________________________________________________________________

Do you guys know how painful it is to be alone?
In solitude, without anyone to turn to??

Since when have i started feeling like this..
i remember bits & pieces of happiness i use to grasp when i was a toddler.

still, i'd protect all that i love.

2 Christmases ago..

Last October.

Last year.

Last 22 November.

Beginning of this year.

Beginning of this year.

CNY 2008

CNY 2008

~end of post~

what made me happy

2008-08-19T23:10:00.000+08:00

what made me happy
was it the cakes or was it my continued fantasy?

Dalls with Roy S in the gents of Marina Square on 11 August 2008.

What's been happening?! Woosh!
My black woven-looking 2008 diary is filled with juicy stories everyday & i'm gonna leak a bit of what's in my life here on t-taLes too!

On 5 August, went to Sushi Tei @ Paragon (yes, i only like this Sushi Tei outlet! Fond memories~) and Tiffy, Tati & i decided that we should order parsimoniously and be a little more frugal about how we manage our expenses.
However.....

we need these,,

these are must-haves!

i am such a ikura-lover. wonder if i'd be the same for the french caviar.

Tati Tiffi.

Ok. Now guys, let's move forward in time. 12 August 2008.
Last day of our end-semestral tests.
Hopefully, my results this semester would earn me some money. I'm hoping for 3 distinctions.
=S
seriously.
i wonder if what i did was enough to acquire such a high standard of excellence.
i really do hope so.

C'mon Dalls! Believe in yourself and be positive!

After the tests, we decided to treat ourselves by having fun shopping around town!
I vaguely remember us walking around Raffles City, then we head down to City Link & Marina Square!!!
Yes, that day was fun! Roy Seet joined us after our test too!
Some random shots:

Roy Seet.

Jeff Ng.

Happiness.

ooooooooh... Tati touching her bottom... Trying out her new pose for her ad campaign "So What?".... Hahahahas.

That's all for that day! Roy Seet had to book in on that actual day too. Sad huh. Life in army is kinda restricted. But hey, that's what happens if you are an employee too. Hmmm. E-m-p-l-o-y-e-e.

On that Tuesday, 12 August 2008, Tiffany, Jeff & I went down to..... Edwelweiss Park (yes, again, my our lives).
& guess what?
We went there yesterday too (Monday, 18 August)!
Siao right?

Sad to say, Tiff & I didn't really tan much. We just kept fit and worked out alot.
Haas.

Jeff on the threadmill, Tiff with her play-ball.
He's smiling at the threadmill.
Yes, i know...
Spooky...
I wonder if he talks to them too...

Gosh, i realised i'm smiling too.
Even happier, at my threadmill.
Maybe... working out can be a happy pill by itself too!

Everyone should start getting a threadmill and placing them at home!
ok, i'm getting a bit luny here.
>.<

hmm. strange.

still. smiling... getting creepier.

gone mad! Club Med.
(inspiration from Club Med's 1997 advertorial and Jeremy's piece of work for Club Med - marketing@TP)

we then went to the steam room in the gents.
yes, we pulled tiffy in.
wahahahhas.

& the bathroom became red.
NO LA, JOKES. i made that colour tint.

Yucks, i feel like i'm talking to myself in my blog. Plus, no one really tags too.
Gosh.
Maybe, this is a sign of my mental weakness...
=(

hahahs.

Jeff in the steamroom looking happy.

then, Jeff looking sleepy after all that fun!
Hahahas. Tiffy looks so exciting! Like meeting her lover siol.
In actual fact, she didn't.

We all went for a movie at E!Hub, caught Money No Enough 2, by Jack Neo (or Neo Productions, or something like that).

I think that the movie is highly relatable (like all of other Jack's films) and if you are a keen supporter of local films, you really shouldn't miss this melodramatic film! Don't wait for the DVDs, you won't understand nuts then.

Wednesday, went to Compass Point with Samantha, talked alot - as usual.
Met Jeff, came to my house. Sam stayed for dinner. Short day, but a sweet one.

On thursday, we went to have our services marketing subject de-brief and also our theatre class! Our last theatre class!
How sad...
=(

The stage is where i always wanted to be. Portraying characters and adapting the different human natures, and even the receptive audience plays a part in their different styles and ways of percepting our works.

Love the Stage!

=))
Fun people!

We ate cheesecakes by Bg Ben and played Wolves & Sheeps (the Polar Bear/ Murderer & Detective version)!
How fun can theatre be?!!

Jeff then came to school and went back home with me.
hahahhas.
Thanks ar, neighbour!

Friday is a uber fun day too!
Met so many people in town: Tatiana, Jeff, Hakim, Tiffany, Ridzwan.
Had Canele with my neighbour:

the famous Le Royale.

the infamous Jeff.

caught a movie with Jeff & Sam after that - Midnight Death Meat Train (or something like that).

that night went Sher's house. Roy sleptover...
walked around the estates alot. called someone.
Bah.

sleptover at Tiffy's on saturday with Roy.
sunday, caught Love of Siam again.
Roy is deeply affected by it too. Everyone would be. I mean, c'mon. Love crosses all boundaries.
Not everyone would understand this complex concept though everyone might felt what it meant.

That night, was all-out night.
Hmmm.

Monday was Edelweiss Park again!
& yes, no tanning. Sun came out only when we left that place.

getting ready for town.

Jeff & his Sebastian clay.
So hard, you can't wash it off during your shower.
& yes Jeff, this is considered hard-clay that is hard to wash. Go ask some hair professionals.
=P

They sure take a long time.
(actually, me too!!) LOL.

Today?
Stayed home.
Finish watching "absolute boyfriend".

Would write reviews on absolute boyfriend & Love of Siam real soon!
So... Please leave a tag for me to recognise your presence in my humble blogg!
Till, next time,
shine in Love.

Love is the start of every miracle

Why, my reason?

2008-08-18T00:01:00.000+08:00

Why, my reason?

called you that night i wanted to hear your voice
i can't find my light...
the night just stood still and moist

the moisture given out was not a refreshing one.
it was a heavy one...
carrying with it, sorrow, grief and pain..

i was nearby. i walked towards the direction of your home..
i called.

what i wanted to say is, "i can't do it."

now, i'm going out everyday...
so that i can stop thinking so much about it.

& start smiling more often.

nevertheless, i don't think it's working.
cause every night on my pillow where i rest my head.

the burden i carry back to my dream land, filled with my own fantasies and my unrequited world of love...
i think of you.

Way That I Love You

2008-08-13T01:17:00.000+08:00

the Way That I Love You
smiles?

i guess i need to cheer up
feeling rejected, handling my emotions.

why is it unrequited & ending just there?
always hoped that you know how much i care..
how can you not care...?

why? what's the reason for this painful rejection??

Today was fun, i guess - at least i smiled through the day & night.

"Is this a hint of you Lyk me? Lol."
- 17 November 2007, 6.10pm.

all the impossible, i wanna do..
为爱勇敢一次.

Reaching Out

2008-08-10T22:22:00.000+08:00

Reaching Out
for someone,

i just want to seek solace.
a place of comfort..

I am confused.
I don't understand why i can't qualify for it.
& someone else could.

Have you ever thought about how i feel?
Do you really understand how much i care about you? I always hoped one day you would see & understand.

Why isn't that person, me?

There are so many times i want to punch you so hard on your face... So many.
Why. Why. Why.

Have you ever, never ever?
thought of me like how i think of you?

hopefully, it can be achieved.

motionless

2008-08-08T23:50:00.001+08:00

motionless

I just feel stiff. Like everything in my life paused.

"like means like."
"don't like means don't like."

fuck.

i can't believe you've never liked and will never like in future.

Zero Vibes, Zero Chance

2008-08-05T00:22:00.003+08:00

Zero Vibes, Zero Chance
why is it so hard

a part of me knew it was impossible.
a part of me felt that nothing was impossible.
i believed.

always did.

so dumb, i am.
i feel so fucked up.
so fucking dumb.

i asked you cause i was tired.
i told you cause i want honesty.
i am so dumb.

i know so much about you now, more than you think i know.
& i hurt myself so much.

you said there's zero chance.
nada. no feelings. none. zilch.

i thought there was.
no. there wasn't.
one whole years' worth of feelings and emotions.
unrequited and unknown to you.
one worth years' worth of battling. worth of fighting.
fighting with myself.
fighting with Roy, fighting with Tiff. fighting with Sher. fighting with Sam. fighting with Joyce.
cause i believed.
fighting for my own dreams, my own fantasy that will never come true.

never say never? i think never just came into my life.
i am always a positive-looking person.
no, i can't let this one whole year of being 18 ruin my positivity i achieved since birth.

this is fucked up.
i hate this.
one year.
almost one year.
i absolutely don't like this. hate it, in fact.

all the messages i saved, the things i write & scribbled in my diaries... the letters i wrote & burn away cause i don't want anyone to know it exists, all the acting like nothing was wrong, all the acting like i can get over it, but i can't...

i have waited to prove what? for nothing??
i have been jealous, have been paranoid, possessive, obsessive, envious, selfish, greedy, wanting more and more of you.
all my sins because of this.

all my fantasies and dreams erased by you.

i feel so empty now.
so empty.
like, i lost my meaning in life.
i felt this once already.
i'm feeling it now again.
so empty there's nothing to cry out about...

i am lost.
don't know where to go.

Sleepless Nights

2008-08-02T18:37:00.005+08:00

Sleepless Nights
Survive this romance.

I'm glad to say that projects are finally over - YAY!
Haas. & it would be time for our End-Sem Tests (which is these 2 weeks). Following 3 weeks of holidays and our internship begins.
Fast, huh?
After that, i'd be serving the nation and leaving my adolescent self behind...

Sleepless nights huh. Haas.

I do admit that i haven't been studying. Even right now! Blogging & putting my thoughts & feelings into words. Projecting what's inside & not receiving information & knowledge from my dusty lecture notes!
PLEASE. Tomorrow's studying at Tiffan's place with Jeff. Maybe Roy too, haven't ask him yet.
Oh yes, GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR COMPETITION! Suntec huh, i wanna hear the details tmr!

Haas. I just had a game with Jeff on WC3. I am such a procrastinator. Argh. Hate this.
I never was a mugg-cause-everyone's-doing-so person. When i want to do something, i really just go with how i feel. Hahahahas!

Unless i feel strongly against my current activities, will mental discipline come into place.

For the past few nights, i have been rather restless and i just can't sleep properly...
=(

I just stayed up, look outta my window (not like there's any beautiful panorama or anything) and start thinking about my life's journey.

So much has happened in my life. I can remember the scenes and flashbacks of the many "first-times". First time digging into P.S. Cafe & Aston's, first step into TP, first step into meeting new people, first time getting heart-broken, first time shifting over to a new district, first time stepping into Punggol Marina, first time strolling the breeze at Punggol beach, first time fantasising about first-love romance, first time first time first time...
I've grown so much.
(rubs myself on the head)
Hahhahas.
Maybe, the reason why i seem so complicated is because i have many different experiences, different beautiful memories, different types of friends and most important, my inner nature of embracing changes and a heart for adventure.

I feel that, most importantly in my life, i give myself ample chances to make up for what i lack. Or what i want. If i don't try, nothing would happen. If i try, something will happen. Whether is it for the better or the worst, but at least... i tried.

My family has always been an issue since the day i was born - or even way before that. Friends has always been an issue too. Never got a true friend that listens & shares until Roy Seet pops into my life in secondary one. Well, that's the universe's gift to me, i guess. Answering my prayer of loneliness. Other besties arrive in my life a little later, i guess. People like Samantha, Tiffany and Joyce.
No doubt, between these people, i have certain issues too. Relationships are hard to manage, some say. But i believe that if you put in the extra effort, nothing would be a problem, won't you agree?

People are relational.
Everyone puts up a front and thus, understanding someone takes more than just time and effort.
It would also take the other party's time & effort.

Romance? Haas.
My love-life has yet to be pathed and staying single and unromantic do make myself feel a little helpless at times. But still, i survived, right?

It's easy to say that you want to be taken care of.
I want to be taken care of too.
But if i don't start taking care of the people around me, no one would.
I always and will always still take care of my beloved people in my life... Maybe, that's why we are so close all this while? Taking care of each other & making sure everyone pull through?
There are different degrees of being taken care of.
Maybe it's not my time yet. It would come, i'm sure of it.
I just hope it comes fast...

I always give myself a chance.
I hope you give us a chance too.

Hahahahhas.
OK.
Crazy talk.
BAHHHH.

I shouldn't be saying these stuff on my blog!!
Who likes talking to an emotional pie with a thick layer of crust that is seemingly impenetrable?!

There are those times when you have doubt and paranoia breeding inside of you and you start to lose faith. Once you lose faith in yourself, you start losing love in yourself.
& yes, that's very painful.

Friends are there to remind you of how beautiful you are when these times arrive.
Hees.

Love is a big word that transcends many things - age, gender, occupation, income-groups, lifestyles, etc.
Only those who truly experienced true pure love would understand what it is all about.

I guess for now, i need to seek my temporary solace and continue being my lone warrior. Putting up great fights and standing strong in my battlefield of tears and blood. The only time i can be vulnerable and weak hasn't come yet.

i envy the summer butterflies, they always come in a pair.

happenings thus far

2008-07-28T00:00:00.003+08:00

happenings thus far
random pile of events mashed up together

TeamUNO (missing: Nadia, Josephine & Tanessa)
this was the day of presentation for Services Marketing. Thursday, i guess. Afterwards, we had Theatre. Yea. Hees.

Random day:

Yea, Coco Rocha walking on Chanel's Karl Lagerfield.
Editorials out, models not yet. Models still Erin O'Connor that batch.

Well done, designers of alldressedup coming up with this beautiful piece of garment.
=))

More random stuff: Painting Tiffy's room - yes, wow. what a late blogger i am.

preparations before painting.

ok. these are the ones that kept playing - Jeff. Dallas.

before.

in process. i was playing at the balcony with my camera.

looking happy.

end product - pink like tiffy.

For more photos:

Painting Tiff's Room

Most recent Edelweiss Park outing!
(warning: alot of cam-whoring. proceed with caution)
more photos here:

Edelweiss Park, 16 July 2008

Bahs

Boo.

gotta work out more!

vavava!

juxtapose. sorry, this word just came into mind though it doesn't make sense.
i havent used it for too long. using it now so i remember i used it.

Tiipun.

cornucopia. like, the black towel?

yea. yea baby.

hahahas. omg. i am so narcissistic. HAHAHAHAS.

tiffy shot this. double narcissisism.

i don't know what he's after. but he's so beautiful.

Gonna work out now, bye! (written on Saturday noon)

muscles, mind my soul.

I'm so tired, gosh. It's reaching 12mn now & i'm editing sales presentation slides - tmr 9.30am!!
PLUS! Last night (morning), sleptover at Tiffan's with Roy - we slept for like,, 4 hours only?!
Haaas
Sleepy mans.

i want my bed.

Dreams, TPDE

2008-07-26T11:33:00.002+08:00

Dreams
TPDE, TPPC.

A boy's aspiration.
A girl's dreams.
To dance & groove to their own style.

The beauty of having a performing arts CCA in Poly is that it helps you to relax and remember who you are. You can just let go of yourself to the music and dance. Let go of all your worries and play. Let go and express the inner-most of your emotions and act.
Personally, i always enjoy watching anything on the stage - dances, drama, orchestras, bands.
So long as there's music & expressions.

Mister oh-i-love-distorting-my-face Roy Teoh was the emcee for Dreams and of course, he danced all night long with his dance troupe as well.

The ensemble was beautiful and his efforts definitely paid off. I can't believe he improved soooo much from the last concert - Gem3.
Tatianal left half-way - what a lacklustre. Loserrr.
Tiffy thought he did bravo too.
Brilliant man! Keep it up!
=D

The starting of the show was marvellous itself.
Roy looks super nerd & funny, i can't stop laughing & falling off the seat. Tiff had to pull me back up...
not. Wahahhahas.
Then. I remembered Gen telling me to notice some parts of the perfomance & all...
& i can't believe i was so retarded la...
I tear-ed. When i was watching it, my whole head was just thinking about her. C'mon. You can pull through...
=)

Eh. But i didn't let the tears fall off my eyeballs okay..
Just welling up & sucking them back in. hahahaas. E... I sound weird.
Anyways, i was like... waiting for Lorencia too!!! She's fantastic.
When Lorencia started dancing, i was like... O_O.
Love it!

Then, there's the EvenOddCrew whom moves are sleek, jerky and powerful.
Roy's not bad too, every single movement had its purpose and it fulfilled it, i guess.
Now i sound like a dance-critic.

I have no idea why i am blogging even. People who read my blog: Sam (& yes, tribute to you who always tagg too), Tiff (she reads my blog everyday though i don't update everyday aka Psycho blog reader), Roy (who reads it every weekend, except for these 2 weekends cause his internet is down).
Keep reading & i'll keeping updating beaus!
=))

Ok. Now for the exciting part! Any negative comment?!
Yes, of course there is!
The feedback form.
I don't even remember it exist despite Roy's effort to go "Everyone, remember to fill it..." then the curtains were drawn.
LOL.

Some dancers i thought were awesome: Roy( he improved alot. really. you can just tell.), their president - Rahim? is that the right spelling?, Raazmy, Yu Xin, Lorencia, Meiqi, the guest perfomers, the SAC girl from modern dance, the Serene-look-a-like whom i noticed since Gem3, some bboys (i didn't know TPDE guys call themselves that until Dreams. LOL.), & others whom i remember their face but not their names.

Gosh. I feel that i have been typing out reports, editing them and all, but i have not blogged and type out personal stuff for such a long time... Probably why i am typing like a naggy grandma now.
(Chuckles) - yes, i learnt that from Tiff whom learnt it from Nicole & Mike.

Wooo... I can get Dreams photos from Nich. & there's so much i want to talk to him about! Wahahhahas.
Lucky he's there after the anal-woman left at 8.45pm.

Bahhs.
After the whole thing, congratulated Roy Teoh who seemed very uberly happy with himself. Hahahahas. Then i did the most terrible thing... =(
I rushed down to the stage area & find Gen. Hugged her for a while & whispered "i saw it... i cried. i understand what you mean. Be strong. I gotta go now. Bye"
Then when i looked at her after he hug, her face looks so sad & she looked like she wanted to cry.

I can't believe i was so dumb...
=(
But still, i want her to know that i can tell. Even i can tell, when i am not very very close to her. She has to be strong & i know she will be.
=)

Haas. Ok. No more sappy stories!!

Just glad i am left with 2 presentations & 1 more report to finish up!
Also, so many things to blog about. Perhaps i shall schedule my next post to be up around Sunday? That will be photo-intensive. So, guys, please read okay. Samantha is diligent with her blog. Tiff & i should keep up too...

if you also noticed, Samsung decided to advertise on my blog.
i had a strange dream this morning...
=|

back to reality, 2 nights back... When my mum fetched me home from school (those stay till 10pm kinda thing), she said "if you have time, spend more time with granny. she have a surgery soon to tell if everything's alright. if she's lucky, it's 3-5 years."

i need to continue to stay positive. i hope my soul has plenty of that.

like a cornucopia.

Veronika

2008-07-15T22:57:00.002+08:00

Veronika
& yes, i told myself not to cry.
didn't work.
=)

I love you too much...
so i did.

Always told myself not to get so close to you. But in the end, it was still so emotional.
I hope Wulfur will accompany you through good and bad times, remember me, Veron!

Seletar Country Club

Seletar Country Club - on the buggie.

Aaron's birthday 2007

My birthday 2007

Sunday - day before yesterday - 13 July 2008.
Two days before you fly back home on the plane.

You were there when i had gastric attacks in the middle of 3am. You woke up just to check on me every now & then.
You helped me with dressing up and matching bags.
You were there to wake me up in the morning when i overslept.
You were always there in the office when i was working for Mum and always got coffee for me...
You listened to my problems in Year 1 when i feel very sad from school...
You play with Silkie & Troffle with me in the gardens and even at home when we had free time to spend...
We went out as a family to country clubs, gatherings and all.
We celebrated Chinese New Year, your birthday, our birthdays, the puppies birthdays together.
We went to Cold Storage long time ago and i taught you how to cook western dishes.
We cooked together.
We did so much together.
We cried and hugged each other...
I love you.

Good luck Veronika!
=)

Whenever i go Bali, i'll be sure to call you out.
;)
Forever... my supermodel big-sister figure.

Faith

2008-07-11T19:57:00.000+08:00

Faith
the light in darkness within ourselves

Faith... is a believe in something that cannot be proven.
So we trust in the words in those we know. Promises that are kept. Rely on examples of dear friends to make us be better people.
Yes, we all want to to believe in those we are closest too.

But when there is doubt, our faith begins to vanish... & fear rushes in to take its place.

an easy end

2008-07-08T19:00:00.002+08:00

an easy end?

why must you do this to me.
it was easier.
would be, if you just hated and give up on it.

i would not feel so guilty.

now, i don't know what i am doing anymore.
i thought i felt a moment of carefree since i slept.
i no need to worry about so many things, i can go ahead and live my life.

but now it hurts again.
but... maybe it would stop hurting so much... soon.

you'd never understand, even though i always secretly hope you do.
the more i talk about it, the more i don't understand it too.
how can i try to make you understand?

it is easier if you start hating all these.
start hating me.
& it would be easier if i see you & pretend to be still close to you.
it would be so much easier and less painful if i could just always pretend.
& when next year comes, everything is over.

deep down inside, it might not be what i want.
never wanted it like this.
never.
but it's easier... always easier.
i don't know anything anymore.
i don't know how to tell fact from fiction.
i don't know what i want anymore.

i just hope i remember who i am.

Tiffany's 19th Celebrations!

2008-06-26T21:27:00.000+08:00

Tiffany's 19th Celebrations! Some COSY bits of style.

Tiffany's 19th Celebrations

Click above to view all the photos & download album.

Yes, i know this is a too late. But heck, this is my blog & i spin my wheel whenever i want to.
Thus, here goes~

Tiffany's birthday celebration this year spreads onto different days & were celebrated with only a few pockets of friends as TIME wasn't really on our side.
That's not really an excuse, right?

Haas.

But Tiff wants this year 2008 be one that is cozy, small-circled & camped-in.
She got what she wants!

During the first day of celebrations, she invited me over with her family for some KTV session & dinner at the Singapore Flyer!

Lil' Tristan fascinated at the lights @ the Singapore Flyer.

Showing us the way!

the POPULAR Seafood Paradise!

view from the outdoor dining area

Trist giving a spastic smile.
Uncle Danny: See, Tristan! You hang out with these 2 people, one day you'll start making faces like them...
*chuckles*

Tammy carrying Tristan to see the fishes!

KISSES.
gosh. i want a kid.
with your eyes & my nose.

Wow.
This post is set under my draft since like... DAMN LONG AGO PLS.
Now's the 26 June 2008 & i shall continue where i left off at 14 June 2008...

Her family and me! (the obvious deviant unlinked by any heritage, blood and ties)
& yes, i was honoured to be there. SO HONOURED.

We went to ECP's 1.TwentySix for drinks & chill with the family and that's where Roy comes over to meet us!
=)

Now, for the day of her cosy celebration with just a few people, (& no, it's not that she's so miserable she has no friends pls. Her list of friends goes on & on, if i drop it out the window, it'll reach Sixiu's house)

my 2 crazy babies.
& yes, when we go crazy, we sometimes DO act like babies.
;)

nice altogether pose for us!
(eh, i want the other photos... where are they ar, Tiff?)

Oh! By the way i have an unglam photo of Tiffy's dad, mum & Godma!
If you wanna look at it, ask me in person kays!
HEEHEES.

Tiff & gang of peeps!

i like this photo alot. ALOT. ALOT ALOT.
bahs!
=D

just so missy tiffy.

looking happy & pink with her new dustbin!

really really tiffy miffy diffy!

HAHAHAHAS! JOKER!
=))

Las & Roy.

& after the whole fun-loving JOY being spread around by Angel Tiffany,, Roy decides to sleepover.
=x

HAHAHAS. totally don't make sense.
but whatever,, i'm tired & sleepy.

Tiffy, Tiffy in a jiffy!
My bestie for the rest of our life.
=)

Nowadays, i feel so tired very quickly. I wonder why... It scares me sometimes.
Some other times, i spend my energy thinking of people in my life... & feel so happy they brought me so much fun & will be bringing more...
One such person is my darling Roy who is still trapped under government's care.
Haas.

I'll protect you from all & every.

Even if Everything is Against Me

2008-06-24T00:02:00.001+08:00

Even if Everything is Against Me

ACT II, SCENE VI – Romeo & Juliet
(when they were being toyed with by destiny)

Dear Lord, let our hands stay together.
Then we shall prove we can fight the fear of death that stands against our love.

Is it all right for me to wait?
I'm very selfish.
Coming to love you isn't enough for me.
I want to feel two people's worth of joy.
I want to feel joy with you.
So, is it alright if i wait?
Until the day you make a choice?
Till then?

i know Love is a very big word & i always emphasized how i will never use it on anyone so easily.
But i think i just did.
I love you for being who you are.
=)

even if everything is against me, i know what i want.
& i want you.
therefore, i will wait..

Love is like a Mirror

2008-06-20T00:03:00.002+08:00

Love is like a Mirror
your bad side is reflected...

getting jealous of others is part of love.
Love is like a mirror that reflects your bad side...
Especially when it's unrequited,
you get envious, jealous, prejudiced & resentful.
You have to face all sorts of emotions.
But there's NO reason to find that shameful..
It just shows how serious you are.

The key to breaking this bad mirror is to understand the other person.
Don't make quick judgments...
& don't let them do the same.

Loving someone is simply wanting to get closer to that person.

But in reality, it’s like you see it there, but can’t reach it.
It’s like an invisible wall.
A strange wall that might collapse, yet won’t.

It’s fine to get fed up and give up when it happens.
After all, that shows how serious you were.

But if that’s not the case…
If you truly feel that you want to be close to him, then your heart will tell you what you should do.

If you’re lost, then extend your hands out.
If you do that, you can reach out for something.

some people will never understand.

2008-06-16T00:09:00.002+08:00

some people will never understand.
no matter how much you tell them, they'll never change. never understand.

all you have to do...
is change yourself.
scratch people off your "i trust you with my soul" list cause it's not worth getting so upset over it.

you can stick to your reality & i'll stick to mine.
i did this before. i can do it again...

when things happen, there's always pros & cons - always a positive side to the cause & a negative side to the cause.

what i need in my life is to focus & leverage on the positive things & build my reality.
not to live life full of sadness & hopelessness.
not to be engulfed by the worst-case scenario (WCS), but to do things my way & have friends that respect & support it whilst knowing there's a possibility of a WCS.
if that's the POINT, i'd rather die than to live a life that is so hopeless.

there are those people that focuses on the good, & there are those that focuses on the bad.

I need positive energy in my life & i feel very disappointed that i could not rely on you to build my life.
With such great differences, i doubt a long-term & strong relationship with you will be possible.

I can't grow in this.

Well, i did grow tanner with Sammie though!

Samantha looking happy after the swim at Edelweiss Park.

after hitting the showers!!

me looking... Not Sure!

Aeroplanes~

=)

after that, went to send Tiffany, Uncle Danny & Auntie Gin downunder Aussie!
gosh, please enjoy yourself there!
Send my regards to Nicole & Tashie!!

when i got home, i realised...
...
...
i GOT TANNER.
& red!

Yeah. I love the redness in my body! Plus, getting fit with all those sit-ups, push-ups & crunches.
Gosh, i really did my exercise!!

Hurray to me!

Tam's Lovely Luau!

2008-06-14T12:00:00.000+08:00

Tam's Lovely Luau!

Love you Tamms!
See ya on your PARTAY!
Hopefully, i can make it! Confirm with ya soon~~

friends? an outlet?

2008-06-10T00:22:00.002+08:00

friends? an outlet?
they always preach about true friendships, guess who's doing it... truly?

being DtherLasse...
I believe in trusting the people around me whom i'm close to.

recently, i was made to think otherwise.

Friends around you are here to support you & grow together, knowing each other faults & guiding each other by making each of us feel safe in this unsafe world.
Friends comfort each other in solace & tries to understand the different opinions & takes on different circumstances.

I don't need people(friends, actually) to play-God & judge my every action, every thought & every tinge of feeling.
There's no point in being so.

Well, it might feel great & people around might go "Wow. You're so right, brilliant!"
But to me, it's plain bull-shit.

I fucking know what's right & what's not.
Knowing how smart i am, it's obvious that i'm not taking a route without any rationale, right?
Can't i base my plans & life on just my feelings?
What if i'm a more emotionally-oriented person?
Is that wrong? It might be.
But i don't need friends to tell me that IS WRONG.

It takes someone greater to say "there's nothing wrong & it's definitely alright to be yourself"

Friends love each other for who they are.
Close friends avoid speaking the dull-facts-of-life & help each other become who they are, & cut off masks & masquerades that make them who they're not & has to conform to become.

that's the best part of being Dallas.

Beauty of Tears

2008-06-09T02:18:00.000+08:00

Beauty of Tears
like bloodstains on my heart.

“For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone.”
- Audrey Hepburn.

I want to cry, i guess. They say it makes you feel better...
I can't.

Why?
It's been a while since i've done that.
I use to cry alot when i was young - anytime i feel in pain, hurt, anger, frustration, disappointment, etc...

That's why it's harder to do that now. Cause i've experienced worst, things that come your way looks tiny to me now.

Like how i am always independent & doing so much during my younger years... All i need now is for someone to share my life with. Al i need. Is for someone to understand. Not Judge.

Tears that trickled down my cheeks when i was young suggested my strength as a person. I was weak then.
But i'm not now...
It just seems to be that i've semi-consciously conditioned myself into stopping myself from crying easily as it's a sign of weakness.
& once this sign of weakness is shown, i might really breakdown...
& i don't want this to happen.

it's not a pretty sight.

ALL I'M DOING NOW IS TO HOPE & PRAY FOR LOVE & KINDNESS IN THE UNIVERSE TO SHIFT THEIR FOCUS TO YOU.
MAY ALL THE POSITIVITY BE WITH THEE.

i don't want to be alone now. You must promise me you'd fight.
no matter what.

Heartfelt Honesty

2008-06-05T16:30:00.000+08:00

Heartfelt Honesty
as sweet as tango for two.
as bitter as mortal fight.

Time... is moving as our (my) emotions are.
is moving as your (my) energy saps away.. as your (my) energy is replenished..
is moving as your (my) schizophrenic battle wages.

Werewolf - Cocorosie

"Loose grip on gravity falls sky blinding crumbling walls
River sweep away my memories of
Children's things a young mother's love
Before the yearning song of flesh on flesh
Young hearts burst open wounds bleed fresh"

"I don't mean to close the door
But for the record my heart is sore
You blew through me like bullet holes
Left stains on my sheets and stains on my soul
You left me broke down begging for change"

"I has dreams that brings me sadness
Rain much deeper than a river
Sorrow flow through me
Tiny waves of shivers
Corny movies make me reminisce
They break me down easy on this generic love shit"

"Get up on that horse and
Ride into the sunset
Look back with no remorse"

"If you risk nothing, than you risk everything." 
 - Geena Davis.

May be my expressions must be brought forth.
I mean..

I mean?

I mean.

I mean,, if he/she/i doesn't feel the same way & hates me for how i feel, then i would be missing out a great friendship.

but if he/she/i feel the same way... ... ... well, let's just say i won't be disappointed.

In the end? I'm willing to risk it.

Outcome? It's gonna be platonic... Platonique.

it's a social taboo.
not everyone chooses to fight it like me.

discrimination is commonplace & you have to deal with that if you choose to fight it.
it's tiring.
not everyone wants to complicate their life.
they prefer speaking in secrecy
& living reality like a fantasy of simplicity.
but is that all real?

in the end on their dying bed...?

i prefer living for myself & feeling happy cause i keep no lies within myself.

but. i'm more susceptible to immense negativity.
yet know i can deal with it.

it's okay by me. it's a long time ago.
it's okay by me... it's okay by me. it's okay by me? it's okay by me.

my bittersweet resolution.
accompanied with songs by
Imogen Heaps & CocoRosie.

19 May 2008

2008-05-23T19:15:00.001+08:00

19 May 2008
Z5-shoot: catalogue.

Spotted: T, Cat, F & D in VivoCity!

this post contains photos from 19 May 2008 - Monday.
What happened that day?
Well, little Miss Anna was suppose to meet me, T, F & Cat since she has gotten back from her Bali Beach House. But the night before ended with a pillow fight, which disabled her bodily functions, rendering her immobile.
Thus, she was ABSENT.

This is Jeff, also known as F & along with his friends, all of them agreed on making White Dog's Cafe a regular hunt.
=)

This is Dallas - myself & the in the next photo... we'll see...

F's finger up my cheeks!
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Then! There's Cat (Sixiu) & T (Tiffany).

all of us basking in the warm sun, taking photos & being HAPPY - like tourists!

D & F - Deaf.

D & T - design & technology.

D cat.

All of us!

Now, the most interesting section of this photo-log (or post, or... whatever):
@ Tiffany's HOME.

T welcoming us to her home with a MEGA-COLOSSAL Gucci carrier.

Cat's trying on couture.

Cat under her umbrella.

Cat & T on their Gucci-mania.
Cat looks like she's going for a SALE! wahahahas.
T looks happy with her purchase!!!

Cat's side profile.
omg. i can't believe i've got so many photos of SX the cat!

Now she looks retarded.

Jeff on my b's blog.

Cat on phone, Tiff on hold.

both on Guccilicious.

Catalogue shots:

myself. weird picture. just weird...
Limbs not working out well... (& yes, it feels weird giving critiques to your own photos)

Nice shot of Cat. But bag can be angled better.
Imagine words by the side going :
Shades, Fendi 450; Bag, Gucci 1,000.

Best Shot! I just love it.
I can imagine it in an editorial with price tagged on the page.
Cat says that my foot looks weird with so much nerves!

More to come:
T's birthday celebrations!
MIG Recruitment Drive
Marketers' Field Trip to Oomphatico's & SGFlyer.
Academy Award Ceremony 2008
Mid Semester Test
Projects
Projects
Projects

I just feel so tired & i just need more time!
So many things to do, so little time.
I wanna continue procrastinating...... NOT! Can't & will not!
Discipline Dallas!

& wow... i surely blogged super long... Like, an hour?!

& i thought what i felt was simple.

F&B Heroes

2008-05-18T12:55:00.000+08:00

F&B Heroes
nuffnang advertiser

Recently, emails have been my favourite way of communication!
=)
Regarding M.I.G, TeamUNO, around friends for meet-ups, anyone.

& i received one by nuffnang one day telling me that there's an advertiser that's interested in advertising on my blog.
So, here go!

They're the F&B heroes! You can visit them @ http://fnbheroes.com/
See their adverts on the bottom-left column of my blog.

Tonight was asked the go out clubbing. Should i go?
Tomorrow - on Vesak Day, Anna will be back from her Bali Beach House! We shall all meet up & have fun!
=)

So exciting! Plus, this week will be filled with projects work in school - though it's fieldwork week!

Singapore is a small small country.

Our Complementary Compliments

2008-05-11T21:52:00.000+08:00

Our Complementary Compliments
say thank you..

I met up with Bernie that day in Hanamco with Joyce & Puyee..
We began talking about attitudes, lifestyles & mindsets of the different people we meet in life - be it our customers, our friends, our families, our partners, etc.

One topic lingered for a while. This topic is all about being positive & giving compliments & saying thanks.
Each day we wake up, concentrating on our "need-to-dos" & "what-i've-yet-to-accomplish" but neglect what we have & what we are able to do.

We need to pay thanks & show our gratitude. To anyone. To God, to our parents, to our friends for being there with us, for tutors of life, for anything & just anyone that has an impact on OUR lives.
Being thankful is the first step to understanding oneself & your purpose of life.

Our world is - to some - warped.
Between good & evil, the battle wages since the beginning of time.

We all believe in doing good, but somehow, in reality where we step into the workforce, school, or any society that you're in, there is always a LACK of compliments & positivity.
When was the last time you ever praised someone?
When was the last time someone praised you?

Is it a turn in life where the society starts turning cynical?
Is it a turn in life where selfishness & domination is critically high?

If everyone plays a part to remember their blessings
& if everyone plays a part in complimenting all that is beautiful around them...

the world will be a better place.

listen to your deep within.
always remain truthful to yourself & never change your nature.

what a letdown

2008-05-10T14:42:00.001+08:00

what a letdown
i really thought you were bigger than that.

I feel SO disappointed in you.
What's the story?

Here's the story.
That day something just feels not right. My instincts were telling me that you have been giving me & my friends a certain cold shoulder. Your warm & friendly self seems to dissipate within these few days.

I thought that is it possible due to the changing of classes?
But that seems pretty ridiculous to me as i was never in the same class as you before..
Being worried & disturbed by your presence, i had to call up your best friend & probe if anything's wrong & that you seem rather cold nowadays compared to before.

The reason i got was absurd & self-fabricated!

Reason: He feels that you're always competing with him.
Dallas: i have to vindicate myself & say that i DO NOT compete unnecessarily with my friends!

Competition is necessary & usually commonplace.

I told you & everyone else time & time again that i feel that my greatest competitor is MYSELF.
I'm an over-achiever & my goals are always sky-high.

If you're not happy at the way i set my goals, who's stopping you to set yours?
We all take people around us as benchmarks. & perhaps, my goal is higher than many of the rest.
But still, i'm competing against myself & against my ideal goals.

You, on the other hand - compete with people around you.
You're known for being someone that's very competitive but i don't take you as competition. If i were as competitive as you think i am, i'd be rallying to everyone else that's topping the list & why the heck would i even bother about you? Right?

I don't compete in your same ocean.

Competition can be constructive & healthy. & i keep it that way.
When a friend comes along & tells me that he/she has got the Director's Honours List, i'd be overjoyed for her. (for example, Tiffany).
I'd be so happy for my friend!

Do you see it that way? No, you don't.

If you wanna be upset with yourself, i can understand why.

If friends around me all has got top 10% & i don't, i'd feel that i didn't put in enough effort & the only person i can blame is MYSELF. Not my friends.

Moreover, i'd be PROUD of my friends & not go around bitching about him/her behind their backs.

Perhaps what M. said about you in the lecture hall that day was SO RIGHT.
Now, i didn't even understand why i had to stand up for you at all.

I'm here to tell you this because i care. We all do.
I feel betrayed, yes. I feel used, yes.

That day when we announced the good news to you at the landing of the canteen, it Tiffany that broke the news to you. (as quoted from Tiffany).
I didn't even mock at you for not getting it! I even asked if you received the letter!
I was hoping you got it too because i know you're capable of it!

I want my friends and i to be glorified by our achievements.
If you didn't get it, grab some humble pie!

You don't have to go around being sardonic & telling people what a scum i've been just because of my results.

I didn't do any thing wrong.
You're just sour grapes.

When you asked about my GPA, was i being very proud of it? No, i wasn't.
You thought i was proud of it.
MOREOVER, you GPA is better than mine & i don't get why you're so upset with it.

About my client being the Singapore Flyer & having 8.4 million to work with?
Go read his tagboard all over again. Who was the one trying to be all haughty & disdainful?!
Not me.

It was you.

So, i thought you could take a taste of your own medicine, man.
Be a man & live up to your own words.

"Do unto others as you would have others do unto you."
- Golden Rule of the Universe.

If you wanna pull others down just to make yourself feel happier & boost your fucking ego, then do it.
But once you start a game, you'd have to be a true competition to admit defeat when you're done.

If this happens in the real world & you're less than a friend to me, you think i'll let you go so easily?
I'll definitely make sure you lose ALL your clients & let your reputation go down the drain.
Singapore is so small, yet filled with so many opportunities!

Once someone disrepute your name in a particular industry, it'll be so hard for you to climb back up. I've witness lots of my friends doing this & being done in.

That is why you must learn how to keep your mouth to yourself or those you can really trust.

You can't imagine how hurt i was nor how worried i was that day.
If you were just an acquiantance of mine, i'd not even care at all.

But you, being so close to me & being so important in my life,, did this to me?
I just couldn't believe it.

I thought you were so much more bigger than this.

i can't believe this is what YOU did.

TeamUNO

2008-05-07T21:37:00.010+08:00

TeamUNO
crème de la crème

TeamUNO in Temasek Poly!

Haven't you heard of them?!
Their values are FRESHNESS, POSITIVITY & RELEVANCE!
=)

All the lecturers are talking about them!
I even heard some of them are on the Director's Honours List for Academic Year 2007/2008!

Being enthusiastic about the working society, having business contacts, potential clients, resources and everything else! These few peeps are really the ones NOT to mess with!

=)

Equipped with relevant knowledge and experience more than norm, they set foot onto the world beyond horizons and are ready to overcome any obstacles & meeting the needs of their clients! (as well as making the world a better place~)

These DYNAMIC DO-ERs will not compromise on quality of work, style & design, creative juices, manner of presentation and any possible recommendations for their clients!

Tiff & Sixiu bonding together at the Foot Reflexology Park...
Actually, they don't really need that much bonding! See, Sixiu & Tiffany are classmates in Year 2!

Profiles:

This is Yang Sixiu. (click on their names for links to their personal blog)
Also known as Catherine to some or Cat for short, she's a swimmer that beats records & tutors the Polo Team & Lifesaving Team during her free time! She's obviously the Captain!
Needless to say, she's a strong & capable woman!

Gossips in TP claimed this lady the "most guys are afraid of her" award due to her St Nicks background and the "day-dreaming-at-all-times" award in Academic Year 2006/2007 and 2007/2008.

Strengths: presentations! a very articulate woman. strong-willed and is disciplined! This lady is nominated the "most-improved in life" award for academic year 2008/2009.

Tiffany K.
She's always caught with a bright & cheery smile worn on her face, together with all her accessories. She's a shopping freak that loves entertainment & is a very people-person.

Oh yes. Gossips in TP claimed her the award for "never wears the same dress twice" in 2006/2007 & 2007/2008. Wonder if she's gonna get it this year? Stay tune for April 2009's special blog post.

Strengths: words, words, words, editing, re-phrasing, para-phrasing, and looking FABulous!! Perfection is in her middle name, along glamourous and beauty.

Spotted! T.
T. for Tatiana.
also known as Anna by TeamUNO or Tat by casual friends, she's renown for her fierce looks and killer stares.
Her ability to laugh out loud during lectures & tutorials are comparable with Tiffany's.

Gossips in TP claimed her the "Lifestyles of the rich & famous" award along with 9 other hopefuls in Year 2006/2007 and 2007/2008. Look out for her this year!

Strengths: hardworking!!!! & motivated in life & she wants to work out a path for herself in the future! She knows what she wants & attains it!! A really focused lady!

Agent Dallas C.
also called Dalls or Dally by his friends, a very complicated person that no arithmetic equations can define!
However, his weakness of the heart is obvious to all his friends.

He clinched the award of "best looking couple of the year" with his stage-boyfriend, Roy Teoh in 2007/2008 as well as "the sophisticated deviant" since 2006/2007 to 2007/2008.
What's more to say?! Learn to know him for yourself man.

Strengths: deviated ideas that ends up brilliant, complex way of thinking, critical personality yet doesn't generalise, the one that helps develop ideas and perfect them.

A similarity between these 4 peeps?
They talk. Alot.

& they love talking about life, expressing views & opinions, traveling around the world, enjoying life, love themselves, love life.

Zest for life! - gosh, now that i use this phrase i tend to feel like i'm copying it from someone! Urgh!

Their other two teammates who weren't present that day!
Josephine & Nadia. Will blog about them soon!
Anyways, this picture was taken on the FIRST TeamUNO outing!

A day of melodies & beats, to Party World KTV!

we all sang & became more & more comfortable with each other's... VOICE.
(see, there's this certain particular person that has has a voice suited to sing power-house songs.)

& yes, once you hear her sing, you'll be blown away! You can never imagine.
Everyone else sings pretty well too!

we weren't ready for the camera, mister cameraman!

do another one, man!
we hired you for a cause!!
BRANDING ourselves.

from a third person's point of view.
"the mind's eye's" - joke of the day

Night Bird

2008-05-01T19:42:00.001+08:00

Night Bird
glide through the sky,
with eager eyes.

First up, an introduction to the infamous blog of Royston Teoh! (click me)
Green Dino... Somehow, this blog design just suits his personality.
Hahas. My cute lil' boy.
(goes to add blog feeds on my web clips gadget)

Have been a little more tech-savvy these few days learning about xml feeds & have been downloading loads of techni-things onto my beloved, trusty Galatea-Aspire (my Laptop's name!).
She has never fail me (at least not yet) and hopefully with the help of Norton Anti-virus softwares that i'm intending to purchase in the coming week, she'll be back to full health!
She's currently a little slow-moving. Ok. A little is such an understatement...

I love Google.
I know i've exclaimed this umpteen times in t-taLes, but today i realised there's this particular application called the Google Desktop!
What it does?

See.
Windows Vista has those desktop side bars with a clock, weather information, news feeds, Windows Calendar, pictures, blah blah blah~
& it's only available if you get your computer on Vista.

However!
Google smartly comes out with a desktop sidebar that you can customise & personalise with your favourite gadgets!

Gosh, i just love personalising Galatea.

Yesterday was a super tiring yet uberly wonderful day~
Started out with MIG meeting in the library, and got lots done! (thankfully!)
Had lunch with Tiffany, with Lionel & Sharon's class at Design Pad. This part of the day wasn't that wonderful, i guess.

Saw someone i wasn't prepared to meet i guess.
Well, no one's forcing me to meet this person anyways.
I don't understand why i still feel for people that's from the past. They just continue to dwell & haunt me from deep inside.
Normally, i can easily fish my thoughts outta it by exclaiming 'what nonsense'.
But seriously, not everyone & not everything can just move away from my life with a simple 2-words.

His birthday is coming up. What will Dallas do this time? I wonder.
Even Roy is figuring me out, how easy can predicting & foreseeing my moves be?

Anyways, I sign myself and Tiffany up for this European Union Talk. Before entering the auditorium, my mind was probably still somewhere else and the only EU thing that i remember was how Adolf Hitler killed 75 million people?

My prerequisite fund of knowledge might not be great, but the talk was kinda like... Not as ... erm... how do i put it in a politically correct way?
Not as exciting?
Hahahhaas!
=x

After the talk, i was telling Tiffy how weird the Q&A session was. Questions some students asked were hilarious (poor thing man. imagine standing in front of the auditorium and so many other fellow students & lecturers laughing at your question), i tried my very best not to giggle.
=x
& the emcees calling his excellency over & over again.
Like, wah! Excellent man!
The whole talk was really Social Studies for Poly students. It refreshes my memory. Yes.

We slacked outside the auditorium & was calling all the different peeps we're suppose to meet up with. Had bad news...
Roy Teoh can't make it. Jeff can't Sixiu can't. Gosh.
So, we just cancelled the whole thing.
Sorry Lionel! Sorry Sharon!

Instead, we went back to Tiffy's house first to chill & browse through our favourite models over & over again.
I'm so surprised at the number of models the three of us(Tiff, Roy & I) recognise!
From famous ones that made bank to those that are up & coming, to those legendary ones, to the Teen Vogue models! Hahas!

Us in front of Tiff's wardrobe mirror.

Ever since my mum finish uploading photos of her from her China business trip, i have been reliving fun with my camera!

i look really dark...

still. a bit. dark.

The whole day was full of model-talk after that, i swear.

Roy Seet was then still in camp, receiving award for being the BEST SOLDIER in the COMPANY!
Hearts you!
Do us proud! Do the nation proud!
=)

After he came out, he went back to change & met us at Kampong Glam Cafe (Tamm drove us there in her new Lexus!) to slack & chill for a while.

Cammy me!
My only sin - vanity.

me at the cafe!

me again!

Tam with her two other business associates from Germany joined us for dinner until we separated to Blu Jazz & El-Shielk!

We, being ardent fans of both outlets had to choose one due to budgetary constraints.
Don't worry, May will turn tables for me.
I'll start selling myself!

JOKES!

Photos of us:

Roy & Tiffany's favourite photo of the day... or night!
I don't really understand why though. Hahahas.
I do la!

CRAZY PEOPLE!

!

!!

!!! = FUN

!~!

!~! = FUN PEEPS

Photos when we're in El-Shielk!

he's so cute!

now he looks neurotic.

girl with happiness. & a boy sown on her sleeves.

weird-looking madman.

My fierce brother. My soulmate. =)

After cam-whoring so much, Tammy, Aug & Tam's business assocs from Germany joined us too! For shee-sha, baclava & more other dishes that i would spell with much errors!

Then, at 2am, we decided to adjourn our fun-at-night to East Coast Park.
(it seems like a culture already. like, Haji Lane, Arab Street, ECP, home when duper late)

Roy's sleeping over! AGAIN! Haas. I love sleepovers! But when i wake up, he's gone.
=(
It's his dad's birthday. Uncle Winston's birthday~

More fun talks there about Bruna Tenorio & Sheila Marquez. I forgot to show them photos of Daria Werbowy. But heck, she's everywhere as well.

Least i end my night on a bubbly(tiff) cheerful(roy) note.. Like key of C of a higher octave.
Love you both.

i always use the art of a showmance.
but experience tells me it doesn't work!

Everyone's looking!

2008-04-29T20:09:00.002+08:00

Everyone's looking!
almost nothing is unspoken!

School's in academic Week 2 & everything is going smoothly. Week 1 passed with a lot of work done and... names mentioned...

Is it the year 3 thing where everyone knows everyone or is it just a thing of being high-profile or... not?
Everyone's talking about everyone!
Gossips & grapevines creeps into people's ears for these 3 years & this is the time where everyone really sees things for themselves.

I know that gossips are inevitable. Some can be fun, but those that cross the line - which is always a grey area - can really breach the friendships of those that dabble with this devil.
I always tell myself not to dabble with it. However, everyone does it! Hahas!

Anyways, this week's lecture was really interesting. Not the lecture literally. But a certain lecturer that had a new hair cut!

It's Ms Joyce Wu, our mummy figure in our Year 2 HongKong Trip & one that loves differentiating herself from the other lecturers by looking fierce ALL THE TIME(with the exception of our study trip).

Ms Wu lived up to her beauty name from Hong Kong!

This photo is from courtesy of Marian Poon, one of the many thousand photographers for the Diploma of Marketing & Diploma of Leisure & Resort Management Study Trip in H.K. 2007!

The strength of my project team seems FORMIDABLE with everyone was brimming with positivity & having our goals in mind!

Coming so far with skills fortified through experience, i believe we can top our cohort.

I'm not being pompous or anything.
Just getting real.

=)

I love Team Uno of Dip. of Marketing!
Don't fret, lecturers.. We will do well.

"All that we are is a result of what we have thought" - Buddha

Edelweiss Getaway

2008-04-27T15:30:00.004+08:00

Edelweiss Getaway
one of my many leisure getaways~
away from the urban city stress.

I have been so busy nowadays perfecting everything around me!
=)
I feel so optimistic & carefree. The future of my close ones & i promises much laughters, success, love & a lifestyle of the romantics.

What happened so far...
The first week of school had passed & everything fell into place. On friday 25 April, i attended the Services Marketing lecture by Ms Jeanne Ng and... IT WAS GREAT!
Gosh!
I love Ms Jeanne!

Correction!
I always love ALL my lecturers & tutors! They're just so different from other lecturers from other diplomas...
Hees.
I feel that they have went through so much in life... Having so many accomplishments, contacts & experience in the line.

When lecture ended, i pulled Jeff to rush to Bedok to meet Tiffy & Roy Seet (who just booked outta camp!). Not before teasing Roy Teoh at his Dance CCA Recruitment booth & snatching his cap.
Too bad he can't come with us. Wahhahahas!
=x

Anyways, we bought 1/2 a chicken & thousand of side dishes & shared at the pavilion of our destination - Edelweiss Park!
YAY!
The water that day looks clean & inviting! (I can't stand dirty pools - like those public ones & some clubs like Marina Country Club - previously known as Punggol Marina & Fort Canning!)

Tiff & I had a tan first before diving into the calm, cool waters.
Roy Seet hit the outdoor-Jacuzzi & Jeff just lie under the shade reading the Services Marketing notes & his magazine.
=)

Too bad my camera was still with my mum at that time (she needs to upload her China photos onto her desktop) so no pictures were taken!
However, i have some from an outing on 15 April with Tiffy!

me & tiff enjoying the blazing sun!
Our current trip there wasn't anything compared to 15 April's!
We were literally basking under the scorching sun man!

I look tiny.

tranquil koi pond~

me looking crazy after our shower!

walking to the upper deck!

our way back to Tamp then to Serangoon Gardens Chomp Chomp for dinner with the rest of our friends!

Tiffy looking really dolly!

out the window~

didn't know she took this. looks nice!

then i found out!

on our way to Serg Gardns, we met up with Jeff & Sixiu on the bus coincidentally!
we reached the place but no one else was there yet... &... it was raining cats & dogs!!

tiff couldn't take it, so she took a picture of herself in the bus stop, under the raiin~

Before long, we ran towards the hut of hawker foods & gorge ourselves with the Estee, Hwa Loon (is that the correct spelling of his name?), Lionel, and Chuan Xiang!
These are the weird photos Tiff managed to snapp whilst eating~

to start things off, here. Roy Seet commented that i look like an indian dance practitioner.

tiff is so bias. Jeff looks so good when he's eating. argh!

Hwa Loon. Estee's love that made her play with EXTRA (her good o'dog~)

tiff herself, looking so EVER-prepared.

estee looks so good.

the cat purrs happily with her beancurd!

Chuan Xiangness~

the lion looking goofy!!! he always look goofy! reminds me of Simba. the eldest brother of the pack.

we then went to haato for ice-cream!
& chilling, slacking & blabbering nonsense...

we really enjoyed ourselves that night. it's all in our faces!

potential nemesis that will steal couple of the year award from me & royteoh this coming december...

jeff, xiang & cat.

i look worried... tiffy keeps on taking pictures man.

tiff: YA. I LIKE! CANNOT ARS?

cat & tiff.

the night is still young, but we're all beat... we decided to all go home!
sixiu & jeff came over to my house though & Tiffy slept over!
=)

way back home~
end of 15 April 2008~

TODAY is Mumzi (Zeny)'s birthday! Joyce's mummy!
=)
Haahaas! Just called her to wish her for this blessed year.

Yesterday was Aug's Tea Party & many of us attended it!
Roy Seet, Tiffy, Tammies(hahahas!), Mel Seet, Ryan Desker, Elijah, a guy called... Josh?, Auggy himself & me!
They whipped out a damn delicious brunch made from pure goodness! With pancakes, baby-muffins, strawberry syrup, peach syrup, omelettes, eggs, eggs, eggs, bacons, sausages, smoked salmonsss, hahahas!
Doesn't everything sounds so marvelously scrumptious?!

After munching off so much, we went into Aug's room (which we always love!!!) to watch a bit of Alvin the Chipmunk & slack away~

A while later, Mel called all of us to watch their YMCA PLAY! So we did & it was so good! Wish i was there!
Too bad we couldn't make it mans!

I'm so excited for Roy Seet's & my outfits we ordered online to be shipping in this coming week!
Anticipation is making me sweat!

Anyway, i love Roy Seet's outfit to Aug's teaparty yesterday SO SO SO much!
>.< style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Issey Miyake's muse or something. He's so old already - i mean Issey.

now that i am focused.

Academic Year 3.1

2008-04-23T19:56:00.004+08:00

Academic Year 3.1
School's Back!

Yes! School's back!
But are we ready for it?

I believe Week 1 has been great so far... Though i believe i'm still not disciplined enough & not spending enough time in school to do what i need to do.
My timetable this semester is the filled with blocks of free time - which means getting 3 distinctions is no excuse - & has only 3 core subjects plus one CDS & Apel 3.

Subjects taken for this semester:

Brand Management
Sales Management
Services Marketing (the elective)
Theatre Studies (the CDS)
Apel 3

Jeff might argue that Week 1 is too slack for him, but i believe it gives us enough time to smear paint on each other, right?

Week 1 booted & will continue booting up our engines...

We helped Tiffy revamp her room,
gave me ideas to personalise Lave Cradle(my room),
visited IKEA,
do some research on our clients,
time to tailor my CV & resume for companies i'm interested to do internships at,
tan body to get my red glow,
spent time with Roy Seet,
kiss Sharon on her neck(just joking!),
return RoyTeoh's (dancing dog's) berms,
played DOTA with Jeff,
watch some anime,
read IKEA cataloges
and most importantly, FOCUS!

From my current knowledge, our clients this year are important organisations that are internationally known. (I did not attend the Sales Management lecture on monday, thus, do not know our Sales Management clients)

Clients this year:

stompAIDS (for stompAIDS 2008)

the Singapore Flyer
(yes, i was one of those that got injected with ecstasy & can't stop exclaiming 'OMG!')

ClubMed
(aka Club Méditerranée, i so love resorts & leisure clubs!)
a lovely getaway!

I'm so lucky to be in the same class as Tiffany. It is rumoured that the school's system places bestfriends together in a class!

Let's cross our fingers & pray that this semester will make our hearts skip beats & make memories with all our friends, coursemates & schoolmates!

To end this post, here's Singapore Flyer on the Official Opening with it's beautiful pyrotechnics.

so there's something to look back when we're out there...

Dressup Day on 12 April

2008-04-16T18:43:00.003+08:00

Dressup Day on 12 April
a commandment by Roy Seet.

Dressup Day (12Apr08)

Click on the album above to view the photos!

It was last saturday and we all ventured to Wisma Atria to discover...

The fishes had moved house!
& yes. This is old news...

Despite my effort to read Channel NewsAsia through my homepage iGoogle everyday. I can't believe i missed this!
These fishies that used to enchant me when we were toddlers are now swimming the tanks of Underwater World!

How amazing. Just hope the tiger sharks, nurse sharks & fiercesome bull sharks don't take them as food... (jokes! they can't possibly place them in the same tank right.. i'm just guessing man.)
-.-

Anyways, we were so crazily hungry we decided to settle for Pasta Cafe & relive our Christmas 2006 experience!
(p.s. i wanted to find a link to my Christmas post in 2006 but realised i sound totally nuts in 2006 & i wasn't a upload-photo blogger then.)

wow. Sher looks pissed & Roy looks like he's trying very hard to smile... I wonder why...

myself - with really white-washed face.
unlike my current one with red glowing from everywhere pantomiming a lobster!

Roy's CK Calvin Klein sandals that made eyes turn & people gossip & stare...
Sher really hates it when people stare. Roy loves it. I guess... I'm okay with it?
Hahahahas!
Ok, i mean... Come on la... It's bloody $599.
I'd stare too. =x

they look so cute together in this photo!
Sher & Roy!

& myself, sitting alone with all our bags. =(

Our meal:

Sher's clam pasta! (Spaghetti)

My Mediterranean pasta! (Fettuccines)

Roy's Dory baked pasta! (Penne)

After that, Roy complaint he's hungry & we went to scour for MORE FOOD!
note: i've always emphasised this & i can't stress enough! Roy eats like a horse but still maintains a weight of 60kg. Gosh. Or is it 57? EH. I'm 57kilos. Ok, i can't remember. Just remember, he really EATS alot!! All the time man!

We then carried on with shopping around...
Went to Club 21 at Hilton cause Roy wants to take a look at his Jil Sander's sandals which he's so in love with... The price is quite lovely too... $799?

It made him wanna do this:

Even in army, his body still emanates pure whiteness.
So, all of us joined in!
Sher wanted to do more of photography that day. He's shy. Haas.

My favourite shot.

My other favourite shot that day! Gosh! Looking at myself makes me feel so narcissistic & vain...
Well, that's a sin Roy & I acquired since birth.

He really looks a bit like Alex Wek. JOKES JOKES!
Hahahahhas.
or Ajuma Nasenyana. - true! go google her! She really does have strong features.

Well.. I don't know who i look like. Let's keep that away!
lalalas!

Roy Seet Roy Seet Roy Seet Roy Seet!

Dal C. Dal C. Dal C. Dal C.

fierce ar, boy!

i love this couch!

being fashion forward, Roy really works real hard.
Even someone thought he's a stylist. Did i say someone? Maybe someone should invent the word 'some-many'.
Haas.

Sher loves such mirror-images, play with shadows shots! Hahahas!
He's like... funny man..

patent leather everywhere siol.

Ashton Mystige - the Eldest.
Dallas Mystige.
Roy Mystige.

After cam-whoring for so super long, we decided to head down to Far East to find my mum! She's there doing synthetic eye-lashes. Hmm, or is it eye-lash extensions? Not really sure.
However, now she has nice beautiful eyes. I always felt that ladies should put on a good deal of mascara, especially if you're Chinese.

Oh ya! My favourite Singapore Model Sheila Sim is in STYLE!
Hmm, i am not really a Style-Mag person. But she looks exceptionally stunning in the cover. Her arms, face, clothing navigation for the shot... Exudes sartorial elegance!
3 photos of her:

Gosh... This is such a photo-intensive post.
I shall blog about last night tomorrow when i'm bored in the office! Hees.
PLUS, tomorrow is gonna be my e-trial test for Basic Theory - Driving!
I hope i can relate to the questions since i'm such a desperate for cars.

Random note: I can't sign into my Live Messenger! Argh! Hopefully this technical glitch can be recovered before 9pm. =(
How can this be happening to me?!

that night, made me not understand her for a few nights.
however, i'll still not stray from my identity & will continue to be myself.
=)
i love you mum. i hope i have always proved myself & will still do.

RoyTeoh's 19th @ VivoCity

2008-04-10T22:54:00.004+08:00

RoyTeoh's 19th @ VivoCity
our summer puppy!

Trust me, this is the only picture Royston looks sane in. Haas!

Royston Teoh
this post is dedicated to ya!
=)

His birthday is on the 4 April, just one day after we touch down(not like we took any plane) back in Singapore from our Genting & K.L. trip. He organised the trip, calling it Apple Trip - Operation 202.
Being the retard of the year 2008 & my partner that won us the 'Couple of the Year 2007' championship, he has an awfully crazy devotion to dance! Plus, he has beautiful vocals that can never reach Christina Aguilera's (no matter how hard he tries).

That day, we (or I) planned to visit Sentosa in the morning with the others (Jeff, Tiffy, Sharon & himself) & bask in the sun for Vitamin D, play volley, frisbee & other fun-filled water sports.
However, this dream of mine is gleefully canceled cause RoyTeoh had his dance training brought forth on that day.

In the end, we just decided to meet up at 5pm in VivoCity.
Obvious enough, most of us were late. I was in town with Sixiu & Tiffany getting their hair cut by Kate in Estique & Klearcut.

RoyTeoh & Sharon met up first & chose THAI ACCENT as the restaurant for dinner! The place was good & probably even better since the last time i've been there with Sher, Roy & Aunt Sally.

Crazy people Tiff & Jeff.

Shalooney & Tiffunny! (i love tiffy's new hair color. what she needs now is the Kate-Cut)

Appetizers

i love taking photos of Jeff makan-ing.
He looks pretty yummy - & no. i don't mean it that way.

After our meal, we continue sitting there & chit-chatted away till Vanessa Mae's Devil's Trill started playing. Jokes Jokes!
(Sorry, my iTunes started playing it & reminded me how much i wanted to learn the violin just to master this song... Even so, i need a great pianist........... Kate?)

We then adjourn our chit-chats to another venue.
I hurriedly collected the cake (& yes, ya guys haven't reimburse me yet. sobs...) from BakerzIn & went to Pacific Coffee Co. for more chilling & cozy-things!

Mountain of photos:

the sea view. so serene... (OMG! jap songs are playing... so 'zhun!')

a couple on the swing. so loving... =)

& i present to you guys.... the cake! DESIRE.

i swear he can't take sane shots of himself. either porn-star ROyTeoh emerges or the retard...
still, if he's my son, i'd be so happy everyday!

i look crazy. probably i didn't eat much during Thai Accent.

taking some crazy photos of the 'CAK'! & lighting it.... hmmm.

finally it's lighted! & it's time for DA song!

i look weird. just look at that cute lill boy~ so fascinated by his cake...
his last year's cake was filled with thousands of candles, this year, we give him only 1. We don't want him to grow up so fast... YET.

Jeff looks hot. Tiffy looks hot. Sharon looks hot (with light shining on her breasts too!)

What happens when Dallas's baby boy looks like that?

A peck.
JOKES JOKES! my lips are virgin to those that are above 12. Hahahahas!

Blow your cake Roystee!

& for this retarded face...
we all know what to do to it................
..............
.........
......
....
.

"BE GONE!", we shouted!

& hopefully our dear boy...
this year will be one full of bliss...

our blessings,,

remember to be nice. don't bite. =x

my piano solo tonight

2008-04-08T02:51:00.002+08:00

my piano solo tonight
probably

Is it just me?
Something someone said made me think & think & think...
I can't sleep... It's already reaching 3am...
Hais...

I have to ask myself!!!
Am i gonna let this one darn sentence someone i barely even know defeat me?!

No, i don't want to. But my heart feels some sort defeated. All the truth i believed in:
"All life is beautiful. All humans are beautiful. Only behaviour makes one ugly."
by Jeffrey C. Keene II.

I just don't get it.
Why can i live believing this & i know i will still... When the rest of them in solitude feels so strongly against it?
How can they feel against a statement so true.

What good do you get when you're an attractive ornamental piece with bad taste when what pureness seeks is from the inside?

Do i have to lose out so much?

I thought who i truly am was enough. Good enough.

Some people are just
borned
with it.

Others aren't.

The majority - they say - scans your skin-deep first.
I worked hard to shine from the inside to the outside...
But i was outshone by someone that shines only one's masqueraded face?

This is what i do not understand.

Smitten.
All under this one's spells.

Is it to lose out to not use any charming spells?
Is it to lose out just by cherishing & holding on to who you are?

Just myself traveling through the dark stages alone.

P.S. the dark stages in my life will never consume me. Don't worry, close friends...
I'm just annoyed & disturbed.
"i think your friend is cute."

another post-script: i think i'm listening to sad songs. that's why..
after reading this post, i find it totally "just for my raving's sake". it's the extreme.
Dallas, just shut up & get on with life. no time to remorse. no time to get defeated by yourself...

D for Delta

2008-04-07T16:07:00.008+08:00

D for Delta
& a rhapsody of beliefs

taken on Bus 7 from OLPS to town.

Delta by Delta Goodrem
her songs sings from her inner core.

Delta Goodrem, to me is an awe-aspiring artist from Australia that produces songs from her heart.
My personal favourites include: Innocent Eyes, Born to Try, Believe Again, Possessionless, Silence Be Heard, Lost Without You & many many more!
From Australia like Kylie Minogue & Natalie Imbruglia AND having a saintly beutiful voice like Celine Dion's, she's my all-time favourite songstress that melodies will never be outdated.

She started acting when she's 7. Her life story could be used as personal references to remind ourselves(myself) to be strong & move on in life instead of just regretting & using time to remorse.

The story:
Unfortunately, in July 2003 — just as Goodrem was set to try her hand in the American market — she was diagnosed with Hodgkin's lymphoma, and was forced to set her career aside to undergo treatment.
This guy from savage garden - Darren Hayes,, the lead singer, sang her song "Born to Try" & dedicated it to her, to remind her that she has to stay strong & fight this. Always try because you never know what is out there unless you do.
(Joyce told this to me.)

=)
Here's a clip with Believe Again
Please do listen to her other beautiful songs!

Weekend was great! Saturday, went to Aug's house for Augy Bogy Party with over 20 peeps in his house (since parents & sister are in Australia)!
I met Roy to Aug's & Tiff & Tam came a little later to enjoy the fun!
Lots of catching up with Roy & we stayed-over until 5am! Tam was so tired that she brought us back home(Tiff's home) & we slept till 10.15am where we all woke up for Mass at OLPS, with a shopping trip that includes getting royston teoh's gift.

It was -thank god - Father Greg instead of Father Auggy that day or i swear that i'd start feeling irritated for the whole mass.
Hmm, attending that mass made me think. Alot.
That actually many people around has one-million different reasons for going to church.
We can't say who's right & who's not. We just know that these people believes in God. But God, are you sure that's enough?
To me, it's not.

For the faint-hearted & those who believes strongly in their faith & do not find a reason to be debated against, do NOT carry on reading.
(though i believe that true faiths has no fear when matched, instead the power of reason & beliefs will open our horizons)

Just another of "how Dallas's mind work":

The reason they believe in you will perhaps question the vital existence of a church (a place of worship, as humans define).
Before Jesus died for us, did people believe in him? No. Not everyone. Only his disciples & other few.
We believed in him after he sacrificed for us.

My point is... there are people who believes for the sake of it, being susceptible to foreign faiths while there are others that believes in it yet are insusceptible to foreign faiths & also are unafraid to be matched by foreign faiths.
These people are those i feel who really understands what they condition themselves to believe in. & i respect that.

Please do remember that fear is Satan's best friend & if you stand so strongly for your faith, you won't need to be afraid to be put to test.
Not being tested is a bliss.
Being tested & coming out of it unscathed is a blessing.
Everyone can judge who is right & wrong. But for me, the judge must be judged first & understand him/herself before making judgment.
Also, judgment can be right or wrong. Therefore, judgment is not always right. It is a superficial ultimatum made for normality & conformation. There is a need for this in society, that is why this scary thing exists. The human brain cannot enter another dimension of sophist.
Justice surfaces as that.

Here are some lyrics from the song Possessionless:

All the things that i've collected
Stones and Shells
Every word in every book
Upon my shelves
Only form a brief description of myself
But they don't define who i am
I don't think anything can, no
...
I'm completely undressed
But i couldn't care less
I'm standing here possessionless
It's the only true test
When the only thing left
Is a love thats possessionless
...
I don't crave what i have not
i don't need more than i've got
It's just me that i offer up
...
All i got is my body
And it's naked for you
All i got is this heart
That i'm willing to lose
I know in this life
I give it everything
All i got is this soul and
Its shedding its clothes
Do you see who i am now
Your standing this close
You know in these arms
You're feeling everything

Xarrieal House B-Bash 2008

2008-04-04T20:14:00.002+08:00

Xarrieal House B-Bash 2008
a simple, close to the heart affair.

& yes! Sher's birthday just passed.
I did messaged him while i was away on vacation in Genting & K.L. (can't remember where).
Hopes he received it!

We celebrated with him last saturday with his family members & Roy because he wanted it simple. Well, he always want it simple.
Roy & I were discussing that if he wants it simple for his 21st, we'd just take charge!

Talking about taking charge reminds me... I just emailed (probably a hundred times already) to inform the super duper minority of us about the final decision on what's happening on tuesday!

...
...
CELEBRATING ROYSTON TEOH'S 19TH BIRTHDAY IN SENTOSA!

How fun! I get to plan my baby's birthday party.
Here, i'd like to say,

"Love you lots baby! Enjoy this blessed year with me & all your family & friends! Live in bliss!"

I swear my children in future has to have his personality. I'll never get stress & worry.

Back to Sher's b-day bash...
Early that morning, i had a quibble with Roy! Urgh!
Kinda sucked but we got over it in the end... (though he doesn't want to discuss the events that we encountered)

Proceeded to town to get Sher a gift from us, truly. This gift is something he longed for since... I don't know when man. Like, 5 years old?! But no one really got it for him.

Well, it gave us ample reason to make him smile, & so we did.

It's a LAP COAT! Just for ya!
HAAS.
I think Roy scour alot of places just for this! Haas.

Roy helping Sher put on his lapcoat. Hees.

He looks so cute in it!

Couer Noir - the cake.
Layers of dark chocolate mousse and sacher sponge, with brandy cherries and hazelnut dacquoise at the base.
The latter i knew, Couer Noir means Black Heart.

2 more photos:

a photo of Sher in nice clothings celebrating his birthday whilst he furtively plans to lie to his parents about going out clubbing with Dallas & Roy... when he's NOT!
Haas.
Roy & I proceeded to ECP to find Tiffany to chill out till 3-4am that night. (we were all awaiting our Apple Trip anxiously!)

Sher would love this photo cause he's cute-looking & many girls & guys would go after him.
=X
hahahahas!

A post regarding my APPLE Operation 202 Trip to Genting & K.L (4days, 3nights) will be posted up in a few days time due to the extensive numbers of photos.

P.S. nowadays, i've switched to using PICASA by Google to upload my photos & hopefully it's would not be as lag as photobucket.
I support Google! Woohoo! to their Brilliant marketers!

Aries like Sher & RoyTeoh are funny people that will crack up!

Deliverance: Augustine's Party

2008-03-30T23:50:00.000+08:00

Deliverance: Augustine's Party
"& now, i'm free!" - Auggy.

Just some crazy photos before i leave for Operation 202 - APPLE Trip! (to Gentings & K.L. with 10 other course mates!)

Well, sudden news section:
1) Mary is sick, recovering & hopefully is fit enough for this operation.
2) Sixiu'x grandma passed on. Bless thee. lotsa love from me. Stay strong, Xiu!
3) Sharon's not coming for the operation.

Last saturday was Auggy's party (as well as Kate's birthday celebration).
& here are some photos:
(for more information & more photos, please visit Tiffy's blog. Just click on her link on the left section of my blog)

Just me.

Roy with tiff's Kate Spade Cam-holder.
Oh, the envy.

Phase 1: Since I'm gonna miss out on Singapore Fashion Festival when i'm on the operation, we decided to take some poses of our own...

Models are... Roy,

Tiff! ...

2 of them!

& myself. my humble(right...) self.

Look at Roy's off-da-shoulder look!!! ..... Gawd...

do we look the same? that day one cleaning auntie said i look like Kate! (shocker! yay! i look like my godmum!)

similarities, differences.... all in abundance!

Tiff loves my legs. =x

Phase 2:Facial

Tiffy's Garden-of-Eden & Plam/coconut trees drawn by Roy & I!

omg. i look .... weird. HAAS.

okay, i look ugly beside the pretty girl. =(

Mel Seet(not related to Roy, thank you) - our guinea pig of the day.

Phase 3: Our photoshoot!

She LOOKS GOOD man!

High fashion, couture pose.

Heated... Seets...

Wah. Fierce. Haahaas. Coolness.

Another couture pose.

Roy & Melissa.

The high society's stereotyped disdain.

Roy's eyes. FARNI.

Last shot.

Our thanks to photographers, Dallas, Auggy, Roy, Tiff.
Models, all of us.
Audience, the boring peeps. =X
err... i mean,, nothing......

Coming 4am will be "wake up" time for me, as i'd be leaving on a coach & hopefully i could be in slumber for as long as i want.

I am totally delirious with joy about it!
well, i won't hear Roy's voice until 4 days later & i won't get to check my emails until 4 days later too...

p.s. since i'm watching inuyasha, cashmere mafia & ANTM cycle10 so much, i'd like to promote this song from inuyasha to everyone that's reading my log.
song: Kaoru Wada's Affections Touching Across Time.

feelings that transcend mere distance.
"can anyone understand what you hear from me?" - Dallas.

Peugeot Moovie Concept

2008-03-27T15:11:00.004+08:00

Peugeot Moovie Concept
a mobile bubble glass!

The power of a human mind shapes thoughts into reality.
This new concept-car by Peugeot is innovated from a 23 year old Portuguese Designer, André Costa.
Fueled by imagination, Peugeot Moovie Concept was conceived from the first major concept car design held online in 2007!

Like how other concepts cars are created with a mind that is not conformed to normality, André Costa wanted to move away from the fringe of mass production models. And he did, by replacing the conventional four-wheeled car with two hubless wheels that double up in steering & driving.

This car can also maneuver easily as the wheels are independent on their own axis. With such sartorial workmanship, that is environmentally friendly, this car measures 2.3 meters wide & 1.5 meters high.

Bubble-like with more glass than metal to its frame, the car’s forward sliding doors scream futuristic. Its interior follows through on modern flow with seats and dashboard of minimalist designs.

The downside (well, everything has its downsides, ya know.) is perhaps, if in a car accident...
The driver might get pierced by shards of glass from his/her own concept car.
Sixiu also supported my stand of this car not providing sufficient personal space for the driver as the winding roads in Singapore does not seem as "winding" as it is, with traffic lights & gantries all around. Fashionistas vying for this car might have to acquire a certain gleam of confidence in their body since the driver would be seemingly exposed through their toes.

The Peugeot Moovie concept car has already made international impact at both the Frankfurt and Geneva Motor Show, making the future of this young man(the designer DUH!), who hasn't even finished college yet very bright indeed.

reference here!

"Whatever the human mind can conceive, it can achieve" - Napoleon Hill

Caged Bird

2008-03-23T17:00:00.003+08:00

Caged Bird
i don't wanna feel like that

Is this what i'm feeling? My life that beats & pulse monotonously, awaiting food from my owner?
I feel stress. & that's why i didn't go down to help Joyce today.
People might call me irresponsible or that i'm over board. That i'm crossing the line of respect or whatever.

But to me, it's not as simple as that.
Jeff is sick today & Joyce asked me to go down to help out. I replied her instantly.
However, i kept thinking to myself... Do i really wanna go down to help? The washing of glasses, chatting with customers.. Yes. It's fun. But i do not feel 'in the mood' for it.

You might argue that in the corporate world, i do not have such a choice, blah blah blah. But i'd have to say it in your face that you're so wrong.
This world is full of choices.
Is how you make them & the people who will be implicated while making them - alongside thousand other possible factors that will influence your decision.

I know i'm not someone that will bow down to authority (like how i was before) without reasoning & justification. I would just do what i feel is right.
I know that if i were to go down to help out at Charlie's, i will feel like a fool. I'd feel like i'm doing this because if i don't i'd feel bad for Joyce that i didn't keep to my word.
But i guess the workload there would be managable with Royston Teoh going down.

If Joyce were to stop paying me salary, i would feel less stress. Yes.
I'd feel like, "hey, i'm helping my friend & i do not have to live up to the sum of money she's paying me".
& i bet this way, i'd be more efficient & focused in my life.
It's not like the Dallas you know detests working under pressure. In lieu, i love it. I love challenges & doing my best overcoming them. However, working @ Charlie's & getting paid does not bestow me as much joy as i could experience if i were to work without pay.
Money is not the reason why i currently feel like shit & money will never be the reason why i feel like shit ever.
It just constitutes to why i do not want to go for work today.

The focal point is that i just do not wish to feel like a bird caged up & subjected to timely feeding periods & performing my vocals when someone tell me to.
I want to be Dallas.
Not someone feeling sorry & bad for all the things he can't do due to his current emotional & mental state & betraying his own soul to do them.

If i don't feel like doing it, i would just be frank.

It IS hard to understand Dallas.
Just when you feel that you understand him, you just don't at all.

nothing in this world keeps anything trapped if anything has a willpower of nature.

Homini Emerito by Mango

2008-03-22T14:52:00.007+08:00

Homini Emerito by Mango
'man who enjoys a reward because of its merits' in Latin.

Just last week on wednesday while going back to Gio Concepts to change the fit of my Parka and getting my new haircut, Kate notified me of this new Mango collection for men. So, Roy & I decided to go down to Shaw's Mango to take a look.

To our surprise, YES! Mango did had a men collection called Homini Emerito. Their last urban male wear collection was in 1996 (a decade back) and it's even more surprising when we heard that the outlet we're at is the ONLY Homini Emerito outlet in the whole of ASIA!

While appreciating the sleek designs & cuts, i realised to my horror the male model that is doing this new collection - Jon Kortajarena!
He's one of those top male models & he recently had a 200 pages spread in the Official Homme (Paris) Mag that i just got out of curiosity. (note: the mag is not in English, but the language of fashion)

I like Nick Snider too! The model that accompanies Sasha Pivovarova in Prada's limelight!

That's all for this post then!

Today is Kate's birthday & we're celebrating it all day round!
Joyce should be at Kate's workplace preparing a secret catering and already half-way down their desserts already!
I'm really excited for tonight's celebration at Zouk too!

I wonder how it is gonna be like,, celebrating her birthday in Zouk. =)
Oh! Before that, i'd have to go for Auggy's PARTY! It'll be held at Aug's house with a cute theme of 'deliverance'.

Roy is gonna meet me around 6-7pm & hopefully today will be an enjoyable night for him before he goes back into servicing the nation!
PATRIOTIC! hoo!

If you're still wondering is Dallas gonna post up pictures from his Dad's birthday yesterday in the SG FLYER...
The answer is no. Cause it didn't happen in the end. Mum was afraid of heights & we all decided to skip it. HAHAHAHHAHAS.

=x

poor dad.
nvm, there's always another year.
or something like that..
i wanna be on the flyer! ARGH.

Now, i have to focus on getting more items to fill up my wardrobe! Hees. I'm so hopeless. Spend Spend Spend! =)

money comes easily.
& there's enough to go around for everyone.
Positive mindset = positive actions!

Target: H.E. by Mango's Pullover Hoodie Knitwear(White)!
& many other stuff!

Sam, i want something like your cap from Japan. Hees.

live your inner passion for fashion!

silence as an encouragement

2008-03-19T23:09:00.003+08:00

silence as an encouragement

you could have said so many...
like "good luck for your future", "i've been through what you've gone through & you'll need courage", "been there & done that, face it fearlessly", "we're all behind you', etc...

but you decided to remain silent.
& that is how you encourage this person who is walking the same path like you did.
a path full of perils, turmoils, solitude & even fear.

you became the light of this person.

Frustration: no one understands?

2008-03-17T19:29:00.002+08:00

Frustration: no one understands?
really?

I'm really really very vex these few days.
No one - even myself - can understand why am i feeling this way. All i get from my surging emotions are frustration, anger, upsets, disappointments and angst.

I keep thinking that everyone just became oblivious to me feeling so much hate for the world. I might sound really amateur to say that no one understands me.
& that i would feel very guilty-stricken after all(the mean things) that i have done & said to my mum, Veronika, Roy just because i'm feeling uptight.

gosh. What is my world coming to?
I need some music, food, comfortable bed & ... just someone to understand this pricking nonsense in my life.
It pisses me off.

i need my dose of TLC.

bizarre shift

2008-03-14T16:58:00.004+08:00

bizarre shift
how can?

how can a guy's feelings & passion for the day dry up in such a rapid pace in a short period of time?
i feel like shit.
i don't feel like attending the Dance Concert & i do not feel like going out to social clubs.

i know i would go. just that i don't feel like.
why?
& how is this swift change in emotions possible?
i felt happy for the whole month ... until now.

i feel misunderstood.

Bonds that binds, some that entwines

2008-03-14T12:20:00.001+08:00

Bonds that binds, some that entwines
& some others just don't.

Will you be ready? - by Angela McClusky (from Telepopmusik) & Chitose Hajime (Deep Forest)

Mum & Aunt Angeline.

Raffles Marina.

pool in Raffles Marina

I remember... Marina Country Club.
=(

highway to malaysia at the background.
foreground? full of yachts & ferries (i saw the Asean Lady).

the sisters making their comeback!

>.<
=)

solemn & SERIOUS!

around 5pm that day (12March08 - wednesday), i took a cab under the pouring rain to attend my beloved Roystee's birthday.

MORE photos on my friendster!
i made an album for it.

time is of essence.
plans are thwarted due to prolonged double-guessing & doubts.
bonds are shattered due to negligence & delayed confessions.
these binds might be severed through time, but they are also recovered..
timeless reminiscences are revived & re-lived.

time & time reminding us that we are one with the universe.
that. it is believed & we should believe.

I just feel.
=)
this.way.

the fast moving universe & me.
back to work..

P.S. "i'm missing someone i don't know"
obsessing with his words that melt our hearts

Spring Dior Ads 2008

2008-03-10T02:11:00.000+08:00

Spring Dior Ads 2008
Coco Rocha & Jessica Stam

These are the new Dior advertisements that i absolutely love!

Craig Dean is such a fabulous photographer! (Zhang is still my favourite! WAHAHHAAS.)
Cannot compare. I am in no position to, anyway. I only know the bare skin (or hair) about photography but i know what i love & what i feel needs more WOW-factors!
This is Dior's Spring 2008 advertising campaign.
This jazzy 1920s look with (quote)"bias cut chiffon dress, and vest and pant suit, paired with sleek locks and bold dark lips"(unquote) LOOKS like something Kate would wear!

Gosh i miss Kate. LOVES YOU MUCH! - like a son missing his other mother. (gosh, now i got 3!)
=x

They(Coco & Stam) just complement each other so well! Like Agnes & Lily Donaldson for Burberry! Like Prada loves Sasha. (note: the new Prada collection looks really... eccentric. but expensive. i probably don't know how to appreciate olden floral prints. But i love the Prada Homme!)

I must get the Parka!!! (not telling you which brand. just guess. it's about 300 bucks!)

Gosh, it's so late & i'm so beat. Probably jumping onto my big big bed soon!
I feel so clean & happy! This noon i was doing room-cleaning (AGAIN!) & i shifted this pale-yellow couch thingy into my room. I knew my mum would shift it back again tonight & she did! After i came home from work @ Charlie's, i shifted it back into my room!!!!
I need this certain style in 'Lave Cradle'(my room's name. like how i call my laptop Galatea Acer & my phone Lave W810i) mans.

WSCH replied to me today! I feel so overjoyed. WSCH seems okay with me being all weird & rather crazy. Hees. I'm so obsessive.
{Oh shut up dallas!} - Roy Seet screams.
Roy is back in army & i'll be alone for now. Wednesday is his POP. POP.. Hmmm... Passing On Parade? Posting On Parade? Oh, i have no idea. Hees.

rst is gonna get my SIP(Student Internship Program) forms! Hahas. Just in case Joyce's company can't hire me, i'd try Club21 & other companies that come my way(more like me going that to direction)!

I watched the Secret today (not the Jay Chou's one) & i'm keeping this a secret.

oh! On a lighter note, I love Joyce. Absolutely Luney Mooney Sooney! Loves loves!
Remember our promise to Frog Island? It's gonna be a quarter of 2008 gone!
& also, remember our secret for our future????

Yea...
hint: one of them is getting a PentHouse tgt!

Kate's bday is coming! Don't remind her! Just surprise her! WAHHAHAHAHAS!
=X

okay, i'm getting too high. I should sleep soon.

That's all for tonight!
& remember, i...
miss kate.
is ecstatic with J.
loves Roy.
will reply WSCH tmr first thing in the morn (in the office).
feel blessed that Thursday is gonna be a sunny day for Sentosa with Sher.
miss working in the office with my mum & her associates (will be doing that this coming morn)

things i've collected & words in books i've read do not define me.
they are just brief descriptions of me.

Scholar's Route

2008-03-08T23:50:00.002+08:00

Scholar's Route
Singapore Singapore Singapore

current music: Delta Goodrem (her latest album - Delta), The Cranberries (Dream, Ridiculous Thoughts), Deep Dive Corp (Deep Heart).
As you realised, i shifted my 'commentary option' to the top of my every blog post. So, please keep your comments running in. =)

On the thursday that just passed, i was working for my mum in the morning and then going to Hanamco for the evening to help Joyce out with the store & also with catering later in the night.

The day was fun and it's really so not me to re-tell my life on my blog. (note: Hopefully this post might sound like what you remember Dallas will scribble on t-tales before his writing style skew to the weird-daily-happenings kind) (also note: the daily-happenings kind is fun too! just not something i really do. it's always best to keep my originality & freshness like SUBWAY.)
=x

Anyhow, that night while i was having 'beer-gas' problem with the Irish Beamish Stout, Hanamco's television was playing 'Polytics from BlogTV'.
A heated conversation (supposedly a cross talk between students & hosts?) seems to intrigue me. It was about graduated students that received their 'O' Levels moving on the their tertiary course of study. and... the pros & cons of attending a Polytechnic or a Junior College.
Going Sidetrack: and surprisingly, one of my junior who's attending MI(Millenia Institute) was chatting with me about how she finds her education there & asking about the life in Poly & JC.

If i'm thrown this question of how would i weigh the pros & cons when i'm in this crossroad, my answer goes through these simple steps:
Firstly, ask yourself. Do you know what you want to do? Your aspirations? Ambitions? Or any ideal vocation that you know you would have the passion for?
If so, you know what you want.
If not, you still do not know what you want.

If you know what you want, does your aspiration stand on the industry of skilled experience, networks & flexible (sometimes inter-related) concepts? Or those of tedious research, studies of history and usually a rigid (no Grey area) structure of concepts?
If positive to the answer, the first would increase the possibility of you admitting into a Poly while the second would increase the possibility of you admitting into a JC for a brighter path.

If you do not know what you want, it is safer to go into JC for more time to figure it out. If your scores do not qualify you for a JC, i'd recommend a holistic diploma such as General Business, Engineering, Design, IT, Humanities or Science. Don't go into a specific course of study when you do not have passion for it. (e.g. going into Petrochemicals & realising it is not what you want to learn about and might have very low association with your prospective ambition.)

In a JC, you would have to take up heavy & fast modules (but with proper coaching and alot more attention than in Poly). JC would be more spoon-fed & you would learn lesser about the culture in society and the working world. JC is more sheltered, but you'd have to deal with tremendous stress on top of your CCAs and other commitments. Time management is very crucial.

In a Poly however, the modules are taught slower & is more vague with lesser coaching. You have to do more study-up by yourself and checking up of information. I'm not sure about other courses, but for Marketing & TP's apparel design course, it seems like self-study is really important and that having experience would put you above the rest.
Determination & discipline is of high importance. Time management kicks in every semester during periods of time, but is not an ongoing affair such as JC.
Networking is something any Poly student should do, as it is usually the one that positively differentiates themselves from the JC students. Other aspects would include handling real life situations and the course of study would tell apart those that "can-do" in society and those that "can't-do" in society.

Another vital factor of consideration is the industry itself. Different industry produces different talents & different types of tertiary education produces differently tailored graduates.
For example, for sciences it is kinda obvious to go to a JC. & for business/commerce, it is best to approach a Poly.

argh. my fingers are tired. =(

It's crazy how just a 10 minutes snippet of TV can do to me. I type so crazily.
Hahahhas.
Hope some of you would understand though.

This is a video of me & Joyce going to cater around 10-11pm to the stipulated Levi's location.

Some pictures of the scrumptious food:

The Tofu delicacy.

Buffalo Wings with cucumber & blue-cheese dip.

Crystal Noodles with Seafood (fried mussels, pacific dory & prawns)

Tuna Burgers!

A mix of fruits & berries in punch-syrup.

Roy & Erika are both SUPER busy & stressed. Not really busy la. More like tense & professional. Haas. The stylists are nice & friendly too! Hope RoyS turns out like that too.

I spotted one pan-asian male model & 2 other female models.
All has got what it takes to be a model.
Among 2 of the female models, i like the one that look like "Blair Waldorf" from Gossip Girl. She talks like supermodel Sasha Pivovarova (perhaps she's from Russia too?) and is so sweet to me & Joyce. She's inquisitive about the food & i know she loves Japanese cuisines. Haas.
The other one is busy, so i didn't really get to converse with her. (well, we're not there to converse anyway.)
The male model is hot (& cute), i guess. But i guess he's kinda fresh. He seems really nice and gives out nice vibes and stuff. However, he might have to mind himself a little bit more. Be more self-conscious and punctual. =x

Talking about models, i was watching ANTM cycle 10 & i got hooked on it. I never thought i would cause ANTM is usually rather generic. However, there's a change of JUDGE! Wahahahas.
You MUST catch it mans.
Twiggy is not appearing this season in New York i guess. Instead it would be one of my favourite models...
(not spoiling the surprise)

hint: it's not the obvious Jessica Stam & Coco Rocha - they're still young & i love their Dior ads together!

That's all for now.

I'm not as obsessive as before now. Just waiting for my reply.
=x
take your time mans.
Obsessive Scorpio.

style de vie romantique

2008-03-05T23:20:00.001+08:00

style de vie romantique
nothing more, nothing less.

A romantic lifestyle.. just so DtherLasse.

I'm drinking bird's nest while i type.. Woah. Not bad. I feel like Fann Wong already! (Jokes. that's Roy Seet's dream position. How dare me to snatch it away...)
Oh, by the way, Roy caught high fever & got sent back home from camp. Poor boy. He'll need to be back by Thursday(tomorrow)'s night though.

It's okie. I'll look you up on friday evening when you're outta camp again. HEES.
Can't wait to tell you my obsessive behaviour towards the guys on friendster (turning towards their blogs). I think i'm turning a bit mentally SICK. "Sorry if i keep on obsessing, Winston!" (Gosh, RoySeet's dad is called Winston too. Scary.)

Work is full of tasks to fulfill and editing to do. Hmmm, least i can leave it till tomorrow. Where i will face a truckload of paperwork to be done PLUS transforming into a service staff that serves British-Colonel food in the evening @ Hanamco (2nd outlet of Charlie's Corner, if you didn't know that yet!)

My own personal lifestyle. Filled with the ideology of romanticism. How euphoric & poignant can i get, man?
That's my idea of leading a lifestyle of my own. Everything that happens in my life must have an essence of life & a purpose of fate. & let Nature takes its course. I mean, don't matter how much we tamper on the unnatural, it is only fair to say that having the word 'unnatural' would mean an oxymoron. (Like how i could say it is wrong to say something negative when the word 'wrong' has a negative connotation to it, forcibly tuning out someone's opinion.)

Okay, This is me & my face with the words 'romance' spelled around it.
& don't get me wrong! I am so not referring to Royteoh. (whispers to RoySeet)

... now he's angry. Hahahas. Whatever.

Stennie. Dallies. Lionie.

I sound too happy & high. (yucks yucks~)
=x

I wanna call Royston Seet 'Royst'! Such a cute name to fit such a cute boy! Hahas! Hmm, perhaps i should have a blog post dedicated to Royst one day...! Hahas. Might just do that soon!
Plus! While going out with Jeff & Sher that day, i heard Jeff saying something cute about my younger brother(Royst, not Jr. Aaron)!
SCANDALOUS!

Guys, do you think this photo of me & Miffy is a little too scandalous? I was thinking about how everyone thinks i am in a relationship with her... A love affair, perhaps? Maybe a romantic elope?
It freaks me out. I'll never have a relationship with Tiff, Sam, Royst, Sher... and... and... Joyce, Kate...(note: they are like my mothers to me!) Haas.
It's so incest-ably weird.

However, i do love them all. =)
Confession is made.
Upon them, i cast this undying spell that binds each of them to me like planets orbiting the sun!

I kinda... love one exceptionally more! Hees. (blushes into 7 kinds of colours)
No incantations, curses, malevolent spirits or any other kind of harm shall come between us! As close as blood & as happy as the sun, we two shall not be separated! Wahahahhas.

I just totally lost it.

But we shall see. Once Royst gets his other half, he'll leave me to rot.. when he gets married, he'll feed me to his baby sharks.
=(

'Waraku' we must one day!

What's Waraku? Chilled tofu? Grounded reddish? Sliced-then-diced beef? No no no~
It's a Japanese meets Italian Restaurant located at Marina Square that day i went out with Jeffery-da-grump.

Let's meet him & his trademark "non-chalent-&-heavily-annoyed" face. There's a certain grumpy streak in him that sets everyone wondering his originality.
& i mean, originality like,, "WHERE'S HIS ORIGIN?"
hahahahs!
like, "1/4 japanese & 3/4 mongolian???" (note: I think i'm done. dead.)
nope!
He's pure Bei-jing-ish! (this IS a joke)
I always thought of him as a Beijing Baby that retains his baby fats on this face.

'da drinks!

'da Prawn Gratin or something...

'da soup-based Fettuccines. (note: this is so difficult. i mean, the spelling of the italian pasta)

'da moutain of condiments on ONE table. each.

'da grumpy pot fussing over something. (he waited too long for his food? it's merely 2 mins!!!)

'da dish that finally came & wiped the fuss off his face. (i don't understand how he can be so grumpy when he is dating a girl. who's the girl? hint: she's in Marketing too!)

'da clearer view of my fettuccines.

Ya know what? We were half way through the main course & waiting for our clams.. When suddenly Jeff gave me his "eyes-bulging-out" look & said "i thought we ordered soups & salads as appetizers?!"
Haha. Funny. The waiter apologised profusely (while shouting 'Irraishamasen" - ) & rushed to dish out our soups & salads.

Jeff downed his main course within a matter of seconds & started working on his soup & salad while i had a long way to go, still savouring the salty-sea clams!

After a costly dinner (for the two of us, it was 60 bucks), we went to Buffalo (by David Bitton) to try on some jeans he wanted me to critic. We walked in & saw (Huge load of personal opinions after this sentence. Please refrain from reading if you believe you have a "everyone-must-listen-to-me-&-obey-me,-the-communist" syndrome) the same old things.
Some cheap-looking cuts & designs with the wrong kinda fabrics that doesn't even make any average guy/girl look good. It doesn't even make Jessica Stam & Coco Rocha look hot! (note: I love their current Dior ads)
However, amidst the junk of weird garments, a pair of jeans caught my eye! & to my amazement it sits nicely on my knees, ankles, thighs, crotch area & my back(bum). Love it!
It was also the same one that Jeff loves too!

So in the end, i pycho-ed him to get it!
He looks so hot in it please! F*z would drown in his jeans! (okay, that was an over-statement)
He had a hard time thinking to get a bigger size or a smaller one...
But lucky for my persuasive lips, he got the smaller one. It looks better on him. & he trusts me.

So cute, ain't he?!

He's like little K2 boy running wild & free.
Look at him rub his tummy! OMG. Maximum level of Hilariouseet.
=x

Gosh, i look so stiff!

Then Sher came! Hees. & took this photo of me. Hahas. Sherry Sherry up the cherry pie.
By the way, this GAP brown top you see me wearing... Mummy bought it for me 2 decembers ago when she's in Europe (right around the time Gap came into SG) & this is my second time in it.
The first time was CNY last year.
Hahahahas!!!!!!!!!!

My blog is turning into such a "daily-what-happened-to-dallas" kinda thing.
I like it. But i don't. It's not me.
I don't blog like that & i remembered complaining about it. Gosh. Stop whining Dallas.
Hahhahahahs!
Okay.
In the end of it, someone might come & understand me.

=)

emotions that transcend understanding.